As I’m typing this, I can physically feel my mother’s ring on my wedding finger. You know how when you first wear a ring you can feel it and after awhile that feeling goes away? I want to enjoy the physical aspect of this as long as I am able to.
In the past month (about), God has taught me my identity in such a powerful way that I will never be the same again, and that’s a good thing. I have such a deep sense of purity that I will never be the same again, and that’s a good thing, so I wanted to be baptized in this newness, bury my old identity, and be married to my Husband in Heaven. THAT was my prophetic act of baptism yesterday. When a man and woman are married, the pastor says, “You are now husband and wife. You may kiss the bride.” That means that before you get married, you may NOT kiss the bride. I will not be kissed until I say, “I do.” THAT’s the covenant that I’ve made with God.
Right before we left for the bay, Nathan, my eleven year old son, expressed that he wanted to get baptized. As we were enjoying fellowship at the bay, my friend said, “Are you going to baptize your son?” What an idea! I hadn’t even considered it, so I asked Nathan, “Do you want mommy to baptize you?” He said, “Yes!” Wow! I almost missed it.
So I come out of the water, resurrected in the Father’s Love, married to my First True Love. I moved my mother’s ring from my right hand to my left and felt amazing! From this new identity, this new covenant I had made with God, the first expression of His Love was in baptizing my son. As he walked out into the water to me, he was crying. He told me beforehand, “I’m going to get emotional.” He was so precious, so mature, so humble. This baptism meant everything to him because of God and what Jesus did for him, and to be baptized by your mommy was just icing on the cake. God is SO AWESOME!!
He orchestrated this whole thing. He is my Husband. I’m married and am wearing the ring to prove it. Every time I look at my hand, I am reminded of the covenant I made, the value of my worth, the depth of my purity, the moments of my newness. I wanted a picture of the sunset and KNEW that God had the perfect moment for me to capture His Glory, and it happened. I took this picture, and when I looked at it, I noticed the reflection of the cross in the suns reflection on the water. How gorgeous God is!!! In moments like that, when he captures my eye with His beauty, it is HIM reminding me of how beautiful I am to Him. I love that!