As I’m drowning
I don’t hear You
I don’t see You
But I trust you
So I open my arms
In the midst
Sinking to the depths
Hair floating up
Air running out
As my naked body
Gently sinks
In the soaking power
Of Your love
And in this moment
I trust and believe
You’ll either pull me up
Or teach me to breathe
Author: Laura Lee Bonde
“Below The Surface”
i wish i didn’t care
about date nights
and laughter
about kids moving away
and spiritual connections
because
if i didn’t care
none of it would matter
and if none of it mattered
i’d never feel hurt
i wish i didn’t care
how my kids were treated
i wish i didn’t care
about heart conversations
i wish i didn’t care
about the past
my present
which future
but i do
which makes me weak
in the strongest way
“Damn! It Feels So Good To Write!”
isolating
from
my thoughts
leads
to desolation
so
my marriage is suffocating
my kids are split up
my passion feels empty
and my dreams seem made up
So What!
I should still
be able to write
and dance
to the rhythm of hope
my creativity
CAN’T be gone
motivation should still
be in reach
blindfolded
I’m not sure
of the direction
I should go
but if
I just lean on Him
I’ll make it for sure
“Lifting Above”
recently
someone asked me
if I write anything happy
well
I write what I feel
so no
I can’t explain
this daily torment
losing my dreams
my motivation
my life
day after day
living
day after day
dying
but not TO myself
but IN myself
I’ve been healed of
depression
but depressing thoughts
still come
overwhelming
at times I have hope
but sometime later
it melts away
so many opinions
so much advice
so much division
I get confused
is it worth it
do I want it
is it…my choice
only time will tell
so it better start talking!
“Naked Feelings”
the beauty is
I write what I feel
the problem is
I write what I feel
I’ve wondered why
it’s so important for me
to be open
and I giggle at times
of the reality of things
years of stripping
selling my body
exposing what
was on the outside
now
keeping my clothes on
valuing my worth
exposing what’s
on the inside
being open
transparent
having no fear
of what life brings
so many marriages
hidden away
with problems galore
yet seeming at peace
so many parents
feeling like failures
doing what they believe
to make things right
so many issues
swept under the rug
not realizing any moment
someone can move it
but there’s growth in being open
with your friends
with your family
with your spouse
love breeds vulnerability
vulnerability breeds intimacy
intimacy breeds love
love breeds peace
for all to live in
“Wholly”
songs that never have music
words that never have ears
hearts that never have connections
rain that never has fall
when things are missing
halves are broken
and sometimes things
remain the same
how do you break down walls
that are set in stone?
how do you see the heart
through wounded eyes?
how do you feel the warmth
from an icy bed?
there’s definitely
something missing
but when I look past my soul
everything’s found
a new hope of singing each song
a new vision of hearing words spoken
a new love of connecting the dots
and a new mouth
to catch all the rain
while darkness remains without hope
light lives on through love
“Make Away”
a mother makes a way
for her kids to follow
even a path
for others to walk on
watchful
peaceful
aware of her surroundings
ready to protect
from those who harm
full of love
and understanding
wanting to need
and needing to want
the one who is single
is too much for many
but the one who is single
will provide
all the love that is needed
all the hope that is wanted
all the joy from the bond
of a mother and child
“Scenery”
“Erasers”
the worst mistakes
are those
you have to live with
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