“Trudging”

since leaving Lemon Grove
I’ve been oppressed
and let me tell you
the dark can get darker

along the road
many turned away
some remained silent
while others stood by

praying
hoping
holding
believing

many said
not to write
or at least
not out loud

but if they only knew
how many times
I held a pen
how many journals
were sent
and as I sat there
with pen in hand
only tears would
fall

when ink
becomes tears
pages become
warped

with every thing inside
I felt buried
with no where to express
parts died

but maybe they needed to
for other parts to live

when a forest burns
new life grows
because what once was shaded
now has light

to those who turned away
welcome back
to those who stayed
let’s move on
to those who were silent
I’m ready to listen

“Opposite of Life”

from the outside
in
ready to destroy
working hard to bring
death
to life
knowing how to
tear down
watered
all around
forming quicksand
for no one
to come near
one
right
after
the
other
domino effect
of thoughts
never good
never helpful
always deceiving
until
water’s under your feet
quicksand
pulling you
under
buried alive
in negative thinking

“The Other way”

when I think about a life apart from God
I see darkness
blankness
a world full of
wonder and
lust
gratification in every want
not knowing
that the want is
darkness
always eating
always playing
always digging a grave
deeper
with no way to escape
seeing darkness
as light
the dirt
as a blanket
the shovel
as a sword
chewing the air
to swallow
seeing
the opening at top
slipping further away
until
nothing