poems

“Incinerator”

| Laura Lee Bonde

it’s not the fact that
darkness lies
because
darkness lies
it’s the fact that

at times

I believe them

but writing them down
seems to throw them
in fire
and all that’s left
is ashes

“Do You See What I See?”

| Laura Lee Bonde

I know you don’t
because when I look in the mirror
I cry

I see my profile
my weight
my self
and I cry

I just want someone
to see me
from the outside

each profile
from the neck down
from the neck up
from the front
the back
the sides
and tell me that
I’m beautiful

but convince me

or deliver me from
the darkness
that tells lies

“What’s Left Behind”

| Laura Lee Bonde

it’s more than just
moving away
it’s not being able to kiss him in the morning
it’s not being able to see him at the table
it’s not being able to hug him
it’s not being able to know he’s there
it’s more than just
moving away

“Nauseated”

| Laura Lee Bonde

right now in my life
there’re a few phrases
that turn my stomach
and if chewed and swallowed
would come back up

like
‘God has a plan’
‘everything happens for a reason’
‘kids’d move out anyway’
‘just give it time’

to name a few

I refuse to believe
my whole life was planned out

drugs
alcohol
rape

some things resulted from
bad choices
which led to darkened paths
not chosen by God
but chosen by me
or others

and although I’ve been
forgiven
there still remains a trail
of broken families
broken dreams
broken ness

maybe mending
takes a lifetime
maybe dreams
are meant forgotten

I made the mistake of
fantasizing reality
which led to a
rude awakening
but at least I’m awake
and at least
I’m still trying

“Reading Railroad”

| Laura Lee Bonde

recently
a friend looked
in my past
and noticed something
different

a past
in the light
is something one can
learn from or be
warned by

what causes
change
to be effective
what moves darkness
out of light

in a moment
a word
everything can shift
but nothing’ll be
as it was

“Backstage”

| Laura Lee Bonde

[written 10/17/16]

there aren’t many people
who’d beat their spouse
in front of company

there aren’t many bullies
who’d pick on kids
in front of teachers

there aren’t many parents
who’d toss their kids
in public

yet so many times
people trust
a smile
an attitude
a picture

when behind the scenes
behind closed doors
people are worn
to nothingness

and yet they
smile
and act
and pose
to mask the pain

let’s wake up
to those around us

instead of guessing
what’s behind the curtain
get to know the cast
and be part of their solution

“Lead and Follow”

| Laura Lee Bonde

[written 10/14/16]

sometimes
there’s music in my head
I sing with
sometimes
there’s music in my heart
I dance with
sometimes
there’s music in my soul
I sleep with

there’re no limits to what you can do
only limits to what you “think” you can do