“Lifting Above”

recently
someone asked me
if I write anything happy
well
I write what I feel
so no

I can’t explain
this daily torment
losing my dreams
my motivation
my life

day after day
living
day after day
dying
but not TO myself
but IN myself

I’ve been healed of
depression
but depressing thoughts
still come

overwhelming

at times I have hope
but sometime later
it melts away

so many opinions
so much advice
so much division

I get confused

is it worth it
do I want it
is it…my choice

only time will tell
so it better start talking!

“Naked Feelings”

the beauty is
I write what I feel
the problem is
I write what I feel

I’ve wondered why
it’s so important for me
to be open
and I giggle at times
of the reality of things

years of stripping
selling my body
exposing what
was on the outside
now
keeping my clothes on
valuing my worth
exposing what’s
on the inside

being open
transparent
having no fear
of what life brings

so many marriages
hidden away
with problems galore
yet seeming at peace

so many parents
feeling like failures
doing what they believe
to make things right

so many issues
swept under the rug
not realizing any moment
someone can move it

but there’s growth in being open
with your friends
with your family
with your spouse

love breeds vulnerability
vulnerability breeds intimacy
intimacy breeds love
love breeds peace
for all to live in

“Wholly”

songs that never have music
words that never have ears
hearts that never have connections
rain that never has fall

when things are missing
halves are broken
and sometimes things
remain the same

how do you break down walls
that are set in stone?

how do you see the heart
through wounded eyes?

how do you feel the warmth
from an icy bed?

there’s definitely
something missing
but when I look past my soul
everything’s found

a new hope of singing each song
a new vision of hearing words spoken
a new love of connecting the dots
and a new mouth
to catch all the rain

while darkness remains without hope
light lives on through love

“Make Away”

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a mother makes a way
for her kids to follow
even a path
for others to walk on

watchful
peaceful
aware of her surroundings
ready to protect
from those who harm

full of love
and understanding
wanting to need
and needing to want

the one who is single
is too much for many
but the one who is single
will provide

all the love that is needed
all the hope that is wanted
all the joy from the bond
of a mother and child

“Giggles”

if I close my eyes
I can hear their laughs
Kyle’s deeper than Nathan’s
but Nathan’s catching up
in age
in maturity
in stature
two sons
one mother
two states
one heart
missing two
and two hearts
missing one
the bond between
mother and sons
goes beyond the boundaries
of state lines

“Super Glue”

you can’t make
a parent
bond with their child

and you can’t make
a person
bond with their spouse

you can’t make
a teacher
bond with their student

but without that bond
what’re you left with

a child without love
a spouse without trust
a student without direction

thank God for God
Who takes what’s broken
and makes it whole

just don’t withhold
any piece of your heart