“Hitched”

I’d love to tell you that everything
was a piece of cake

the packing
the loading
the drive
the move

but it wasn’t

there was stress
but we made it
together

it’s hard to explain the emotions
felt behind the wheel
as I watched the trailer in front of me
hold my stuff

my things
my life
everything I had
in a trailer

it was weird

thinking every thing would melt away
when we got here
but it didn’t

unpacking things
only to realize
my things didn’t have “a place”

then it hit me

I left my home
to be a visitor
nothing “fitting in”
not even me

not yet

I’m not sure how much of my bath
was water
and how much
were tears

learning to live
a different way

I wonder what poetry
was inside Abraham

“Wife v. Mom”

people wonder if I’m excited
absolutely
but a part of me is sad
for what my kids are enduring

having to choose
between mom or dad
having to leave
the friends they’ve known
having to miss
those last days of school

their little hearts are so stressed
one struggling in school
treading water
one quitting sports
why bother
Carolyn leaving her boyfriend
Nathan missing the dance
and there’s more

so am excited?
yes
does my mommy heart hurt?
yes
will we walk through this together?
absolutely

hopefully
while loving each other
well