struggle

“Change of Scenery”

| Laura Lee Bonde

I’ve found what I was waiting for
right in front of me

I wonder how often that happens

to look for something
in plain sight
to search for something
you step over
to reach for something
in your hand

God’s been teaching me
through struggle
and revealing Himself
through love

Disney had it wrong
church is something different
but straight from God
won’t be denied

friendship in love
love in friendship

simply given
complicated to receive

so many questions of
should I
if I
what about

but none of them trump
what He says
none of it disguises
His desire in my heart

love is a choice
choosing to love is an option

“Blooming Late”

| Laura Lee Bonde

sometimes I feel
as if I’ve started too late
what prize have I become
at this age

sometimes I feel
as if I’m failing to sell flags
because of struggle
at this age

sometimes I feel
as if my house
will always be messy
at this age

and then I remind myself
“feelings aren’t truth”

God, Who cannot lie
reminds me to stay
young in faith
wise in decisions
holy in living

He doesn’t see my age
He doesn’t see past sin
He doesn’t see my house
He looks at my heart
and likes what He sees

I’m not afraid to press through
I’m not afraid to move forward
I’m not afraid to grow up in His heart
I’m not afraid to become love

feelings aren’t sin
actions have potential to be

although I “feel” at times
I’m the only one missing out
on the freedom inside of me

living through feelings
is NOT Kingdom Living
living through Truth
IS