control

“whole-hearted-ly”

| Laura Lee Bonde

some people think faith
is opening their own doors
before closing others

they want that guarantee of provision
before they allow God to provide
they want to have enough saved up
before they step out in faith
they want to have all bases covered
before they’ll follow Him

but many times
He’ll shut a door
before another one opens
and sometimes
He wants YOU
to shut the door

but people wait
wait for what?

those who can’t let go
hold on to control

do you think God notices?

He looks past your job
He looks past your dreams
He looks past your circumstances

into your heart

He knows
He sees
maybe weeps
for you to let go
and follow him

“The Cost of Free Will”

| Laura Lee Bonde

I get so mad
when the enemy wins
when he’s given control
by free will

to murder
to rape
to neglect
to abort

you can’t convince me
that God’s in control
when darkness reigns

it’s against His Character

no
there’re times when
hell rejoices
from having it’s way

I wonder if the rejoicing’s
the same as in heaven
when one’s found
the angels sing
well when one’s lost
does hell throw a party

wonder if we loved those
through their darkness
how that’d mess up the enemy’s
thinking

Discernment of Doors

| Laura Lee Bonde

I have often prayed, “God, only open the doors you have for me and close everything else,” but for some reason, I have walked through countless doors that weren’t meant for me to walk through, and I’m not sure how that happened. Well, actually, I “know”…just some things aren’t MEANT for Facebook, but if you ask me, I’ll tell you.

Some of you may know that I almost married a man who hated my laughter, thought I was a bad mother, and didn’t like my kids, and that’s only PART of the list of things that were “wrong” with me, yet I said ‘yes’ to almost spending the rest of my life with him. Continue reading →