flagging

“What the Mind Sees”

| Laura Lee Bonde

so
I just saw a video of me flagging
and don’t see what you see

[sigh]

I saw
fat arms
flat hair
myself

and didn’t see much beauty

[sigh]

still growing
still believing

wanting to see what you see
all the time

You Are Beautiful

| Laura Lee Bonde

“You are beautiful:” those are the words I heard over and over again last night. As I was flagging at Straight Up Worship, Krissi came up and told me how beautiful I was. She just kept saying, “You are beautiful” and wasn’t quite sure why those were the only words she could say. I began to cry and told her, “Because those are the words I need to hear the most,” and God knew that, and even with all those words of beauty spoken over me, this morning, I saw myself as ugly.
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Learning to Dance

| Laura Lee Bonde

Last night, the beauty of JC’s Girls at the Rock was revealed again. Our ministry isn’t only there for those currently in the strip clubs. Our ministry reaches out to all women and men who need to know God loves them right where they’re at. But when you have a past similar to mine, fitting into a church family may be difficult.

I remember the simple act of stopping by 7-Eleven. The music would sound through the speaker, and my body would instantly move, while thoughts of sex would enter my mind. This was very normal to me. Continue reading →