“First Day Sadness”

[written 10/13/16]

here’s what made me cry
about Nathan

an “Applebee’s” sign
thinking about dinner
seeing a 13yr old boy

the sign
on the side of the freeway
a place Nathan’d wanted to go
but we never went

in Sam’s Club
wondering what to make
realizing Nathan wouldn’t be
sitting at the table

in Target
seeing a teenage boy
wearing a mask
posing for snapchat

is this
how it’ll be

as it gets better
will I cry less
will I harden?

thank God
for the women in AA
who heard my heart
and handed me tissue

The Morning After

If you asked me, I’d say we had a lot of fun on Halloween, and when I say “we,” I mean me, Carolyn, Nathan, and then some.

The kids keep wanting “game nights,” so I keep creating time to have them, so on Friday, a few of Carolyn’s friends came over to hang out, and a couple of them ended up staying all weekend. Continue reading

In, Not Of

Yesterday, God gave me something to write about, but I didn’t want to write it, so I didn’t. What do you know: He gave me the EXACT same thing to write about today! I have a feeling, if I don’t write about it, I’ll be asked to tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after that, until I write, so here we go.

This post will be like tequila: you’ll either love it or hate it, and frankly, I’m not looking forward to the results. Continue reading

Halloween Caroling

Lemon Grove Outreach

On Friday before the ONE worship gathering, a few of us met up at the church to walk to the trolley area to invite people to come and worship with us, and God had five divine meetings take place.

The first gentleman we met was near the opening of an alley, which brought back some memories for me.

Years ago, I used to walk through that same alley all the time, so much so that I’d wanted to create a naughty memory Continue reading