if I hide my heart how will you know me
if I hide my heart what will be healed
if I hide my heart where will I follow
if I hide my heart what will I lead
if I hide my heart when will I grow
healing
The Direction of the Road
Most of you know that my oldest son graduated yesterday. This will be written through many tears because I’m already crying. I wish you KNEW all of me, so you could KNOW how all of this affects me, but I know I won’t give you “everything” on this one because so much of it is too personal, too private, too…meant for heaven only, but I will share with you a glimpse of the gratitude of my heart. Continue reading
“Drought”
drowning in thought
swimming in tears
crawling under weight
walking apart from man
living in God’s heart
soaring above the clouds
change
“Teaching Life”
When I think of life before Jesus taught
there was no measuring up
someone lorded over you
the Law
not knowing who you were
not being able to live right
controlled
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One Way Flight
When I think about all that God has done, all that He is doing, and all the possibilities ahead, I become overwhelmed at how good God is and how His plan has been unfolding. I know the exact day that I will be working from home, but He’s not keeping me at home to use me less, He’s opened up my schedule to use me more. Continue reading
Learning to Dance
Last night, the beauty of JC’s Girls at the Rock was revealed again. Our ministry isn’t only there for those currently in the strip clubs. Our ministry reaches out to all women and men who need to know God loves them right where they’re at. But when you have a past similar to mine, fitting into a church family may be difficult.
I remember the simple act of stopping by 7-Eleven. The music would sound through the speaker, and my body would instantly move, while thoughts of sex would enter my mind. This was very normal to me. Continue reading
Free POOP
It’s not what you’re thinking.
Yesterday morning, Nathan wanted to take Mentos to school because they’re allowed to eat them during testing, so we stopped at Food4Less to pick some up. Do you ever have trouble deciding what to buy? Nathan was quick about it, but I was in the snack aisle, debating. Later on, I wondered if my debate was all part of God’s plan to put me in the right place at the right time.
As we headed out of the store Continue reading
Wanting to Be a Mother
This morning, I was remembering things from childhood, and as I remembered how I wanted to be a mother, I wept. This was around 5:30 am. I had a time in my mind to work on flags at 5:30 am, but when I wept about wanting to be a mother, a desire rose in me to write about it. I tried to ignore it, but I can’t, so flags will have to wait. Continue reading
At the Scent of Jesus
What happens when you cut God off? I think I found out.
Yesterday morning, on my way to work, I was worshiping God and wondered where He would have me go at lunch. I heard the word ‘down.’ Immediately, I thought of walking down the street towards downtown and didn’t like that idea, so I ignored it, until later.
Worship Flags and Infinity Scarfs 