marriage

“Lifting Above”

| Laura Lee Bonde

recently
someone asked me
if I write anything happy
well
I write what I feel
so no

I can’t explain
this daily torment
losing my dreams
my motivation
my life

day after day
living
day after day
dying
but not TO myself
but IN myself

I’ve been healed of
depression
but depressing thoughts
still come

overwhelming

at times I have hope
but sometime later
it melts away

so many opinions
so much advice
so much division

I get confused

is it worth it
do I want it
is it…my choice

only time will tell
so it better start talking!

“Naked Feelings”

| Laura Lee Bonde

the beauty is
I write what I feel
the problem is
I write what I feel

I’ve wondered why
it’s so important for me
to be open
and I giggle at times
of the reality of things

years of stripping
selling my body
exposing what
was on the outside
now
keeping my clothes on
valuing my worth
exposing what’s
on the inside

being open
transparent
having no fear
of what life brings

so many marriages
hidden away
with problems galore
yet seeming at peace

so many parents
feeling like failures
doing what they believe
to make things right

so many issues
swept under the rug
not realizing any moment
someone can move it

but there’s growth in being open
with your friends
with your family
with your spouse

love breeds vulnerability
vulnerability breeds intimacy
intimacy breeds love
love breeds peace
for all to live in

“Wholly”

| Laura Lee Bonde

songs that never have music
words that never have ears
hearts that never have connections
rain that never has fall

when things are missing
halves are broken
and sometimes things
remain the same

how do you break down walls
that are set in stone?

how do you see the heart
through wounded eyes?

how do you feel the warmth
from an icy bed?

there’s definitely
something missing
but when I look past my soul
everything’s found

a new hope of singing each song
a new vision of hearing words spoken
a new love of connecting the dots
and a new mouth
to catch all the rain

while darkness remains without hope
light lives on through love

“Super Glue”

| Laura Lee Bonde

you can’t make
a parent
bond with their child

and you can’t make
a person
bond with their spouse

you can’t make
a teacher
bond with their student

but without that bond
what’re you left with

a child without love
a spouse without trust
a student without direction

thank God for God
Who takes what’s broken
and makes it whole

just don’t withhold
any piece of your heart

“Back to Square One”

| Laura Lee Bonde

throughout living
so many things change
time
moments
love
moods
seasons

and amidst the change
there’s growth
and amidst the growth
there’s pain
and amidst the pain
there’re tears
and amidst the tears
you may find a friend

but even friends
change with time

those close by
seem far away
those far away
seem close by
some acquaintances
become friends
some friends
become acquaintances
and through it all
I often find myself

alone

in church
aa
relationships

yes people are there
and some become friends
but as I walk to each path
I’m alone

I KNOW God is with me
but even HE said
it’s not good
for “man” to be alone
yet HE was there

so as I drive to AA
as I visit different churches
and in certain conversations
I’m alone

I get turned around but never lost
it seems heavy but always light
I get weary but grab hold
of the ONE Who never changes
and someday
I won’t be

alone