“Missed Emotion”

I’m somewhere inside
I can feel it
but I’m still somewhere inside
watching life happen
without living it

no longer a prison
yet a mist
haven’t found my way out
not yet

sometimes wanting
to be alone
sometimes
wanting to scream
sometimes
holding back tears
always looking
for laughter

a reason to laugh
that’s all I need

I wonder if God’ll tell jokes

“Standing Still”

in Texas
I’d think about
San Diego time

in San Diego
I’m thinking about
Texas time

between two worlds
where time really flies
either forward or backward

in between old and new
in between before and after
in between then and now

it’s like reading a book
and saving your place
to go back to