poetry

“A Fence of Another”

| Laura Lee Bonde

some know who I am
others perceive
in a moment of a poem
what they see

but do they know?

how one takes thoughts captive
may be different from another

for me
my thoughts taken captive
can be found in a poem
never entering my heart
only leaving my mind

but because of
a fence
I’ve held back
because of concern
I’ve turned away

then where’re those thoughts
kept captive
but inside

now I no longer think
of what others may say
and if they really want to know
they’ll ask

for now
I’m writing
with my heart’s consent
and before long
my spirit’ll break through

free from my surroundings
free from my soul
free from a state of mind
which is meant to be changed

but my heart stays the same
perfectly ONE with Him

“Inside the Truth”

| Laura Lee Bonde

the beauty of love
is found in God’s heart
and only those there
will find it

there’s just no way to duplicate
His perfect love
no way to mask
something else

for its fruit will be known
by its awful taste
and the emptiness
known by its sight

“Cloudy, with a Chance of Rain”

| Laura Lee Bonde

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the quiet
brings the storm
poem after poem
wave after wave
of tears

when will my spirit
break through my soul
and Lighten the words
of my heart

a mother weaning
a wife fading
as friends turn away
and worry

all that’s left
is You in my heart
sifting through chaos
to bring clarity

as a mother
as a wife
as a friend

to a child
to a husband
to a friend

if I follow God
who cares what man thinks
but if I follow man
what will follow me

“Aftermath”

| Laura Lee Bonde

does the grass feel
when it’s stepped on
does the flower feel
the weight of the wind
do the leaves feel
as they’re eaten away
does the tree feel the axe
as the branches are cut
and after weathering the storm
will they all look the same?

“Foreign Map”

| Laura Lee Bonde

all of a sudden
time’s standing still
every minute rolling by
to the next
thinking about
Carolyn and Nathan
and their first day of school

I think of their hearts
breaking
the disappointments
from expectations

kids have it tough though
their journey not their own
their fate
in the parents hands

I can’t help but think
how my decisions led them here
where they cry from depression
where the air’s empty of hope
where their face-to-face with friends
is on Snapchat

I know…
trust God
and keep moving
but in which direction

I Wonder What the Bells Sound Like

| Laura Lee Bonde

Today is the first time (ever) that my kids aren’t excited for the first day of school, and it hurts all the mommy parts of my heart. Well, Carolyn’s a little excited, but that’s just so she can get out of the house.

New schools, no friends, new rules (and there’re A LOT of them), new pledge of allegiance (here, they have to pledge allegiance to the Texas flag, as well), new…everything.

Thankfully, we were blessed to get them new clothes, which was the only thing they got excited about. Life here’s just been very difficult, to say the least, but we each keep going.

There’s no telling what the end of the day will bring, but I’ll be ready to ask questions and listen to every part of their heart.

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Carolyn and Nathan on their first day of school. I just found out that, yesterday, Nathan broke down crying (AGAIN). This move has been horrible for him.

“Straight Jacket”

| Laura Lee Bonde

the thing about isolating
is that you can’t hide
from yourself

where I go
I am
where I’ve been
I was
where I’m going
has yet to be seen

in a vision
in a dream
in my hopes
in reality

I’ve never been
in THIS place before
mentally
physically
emotionally
spiritually

surrounding me
are choices
not four corners
but a circle

and I’m the one
in the middle
rocking