waiting

“Hide and Seek”

| Laura Lee Bonde

hiding inside
wanting no one to see
but God Who lives in me
gives me away

funny: I hide – He seeks
covering a wound instead of exposing it
living with fear instead of overcoming it

some wounds take time
some hearts won’t give in
when I hold back from God
He doesn’t take

He waits
until I’m willing to give it up
until I’m willing to let things go
until I’m willing to rest in His goodness
until I’m willing
He waits

when I let Him come in and give Him my pain
He teaches
He comforts
He corrects me to wholeness

for me, it was a day
how long do hearts hide
days
weeks
months
years
of isolating inside

there’s a fire in my heart to reach out
a new flame to find those who hide
to speak His life into their souls
as He fills their hearts
with His Love

Two Halves Make a Whole

| Laura Lee Bonde

Every once in awhile, I experience a loneliness that HAS to be felt, and last night was one of those nights.

When it’s time to dye flags, the whole process is pretty taxing physically and spiritually, for me anyways, so by the end of the night, I was exhausted, and it’s at that moment of exhaustion when I find I miss a husband the most.

All I picture is sitting down and resting with him, whoever “that” is, but at the same time, I feel super close with God, so I’m never sure how to react, so I just react. Continue reading →

Warning Signs

| Laura Lee Bonde

Last night, I was blessed to hear Graham Cooke for the first time ever. It was an awesome night! And of course, in going to this kind of stuff, I was able to see amazing friends, which is the best part of going to some of these things. By the time I left, it was late, and I was tired, and as I headed toward the freeway, a cop sped ahead of me, going in the same direction…never a good sign. Continue reading →

The Absence of Fear

| Laura Lee Bonde

When God first told me about making and selling flags for a living, it was in July of 2014. so those who are thinking I’m rushing into this are wrong, but as the time grew closer for me to officially start “Flames of Glory,” fear and doubt grew closer, too, until a little over a week ago.

Thinking about starting a business would overwhelm me to the point of tears. This wasn’t a “good” overwhelming; this was very much bad. I had so much doubt and fear that it almost paralyzed me.

On Saturday, May second, Continue reading →