Weeping…to Know You More

I am just in awe of Who God is. I’m sitting here weeping and cannot stop. I like to share my intimate moments with you because there may be someone out there who isn’t having them who needs to hear the hope that they do happen.

I was just sitting here thinking about my birthday and how loved I felt, but it wasn’t just love that was felt because of my birthday, I feel so loved every day. I’ve learned to hang around with people who “like” me. I no longer try to “force” myself into anyone’s life, and it has brought me so much freedom. 

I began to think of the things I’ve been learning…so much, and I feel like there is so much more to learn, so I began praying, asking God to teach MORE of His Heart, MORE of the authority I walk in, MORE of His Will to Heal, MORE of who I am. There’s just so much MORE, and I began to cry. The heavens are open. There’s no limit. There’s no impossibility. God wants us to live so freely in Him, and it’s so possible.

Then, I started to think about something that happened last week: someone returned a bible to me that I had given to them as a gift. For a moment, it hurt my heart, but I’ve been learning to look at the “bigger picture” of things, so I let it go. And yesterday, God painted that picture.

There’s a city worker named “David,” whom I’ve become friends with. I met him in Balboa Park. He appreciated how I would read my bible and pray for people and loved it when I would pray for him. One day, he asked to see my worship flags, so while I showed him, I asked him to hold my bible, and I noticed he held it with such reverence that I knew he didn’t have one. I wanted to buy him one but didn’t have the money. Do you see where this is going?

The bible that was returned to me was meant for him, so yesterday, I took the bible to the park. I hadn’t seen David in awhile and had actually asked God if he was okay. As I was sitting on my wall, he drove up. Isn’t God crazy-good! I gave him the bible, and he was SO appreciative. He said it was the best gift that anyone had ever given him. God is SO Good ALL the time!

David had been wanting to practice his English by reading, so I told him, “Now you can practice your English as you get to know Him.” He was so happy. There is no end to God’s love…an ocean that has no end…a sea that has no bottom…endless love.

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