some people wonder where I am
inside
because I’ve been hidden away
in silence
here’s an honest poem
to let you in
when I see my reflection
it’s hard to see my beauty
and it seems every day
I’m disgusted with my weight
sometimes
I cry on the outside
but more often than not
I cry inside
I’m in that transition where
nothing seems right
but everything seems
how it should be
it’s easier to stay hidden
than expose how I am
so I smile for the camera
and cringe
my stubbornness looks
for the answers alone
because with Him
nothing has power to affect
but as you can tell
I may need some help
but only from friends
who don’t judge
the power to overcome
lives inside of me
but somehow (at times)
it seems buried