Alternate Endings

December fourth, two thousand and sixteen…a day I’ll never forget.

It was a Friday, and I’d woken up from a bad dream. If I remember correctly, I woke up crying, and it turned out to be one of the most depressing mornings I’d had, and to top it all off, I felt a cold coming on.

You see, during that time, everything was so unsure: the business, my income, our groceries, etc., and the next day, I was scheduled to have a booth at the Rock and had some mixed emotions about THAT. Anyway, it was a tough morning, but I made it through by writing.

If you visit my website, you’ll find a calendar with daily writings. I believe the fourth was some of my darkest thoughts, but by the afternoon, I felt much better, and then, Katie came in.

She said, “Mom, I have something to tell you. I’m pregnant.” Continue reading

“Life Leads to Life”

January twenty-fifth

the date darkness
planned an abortion
and a suicide
the date heaven
witnessed a marriage
between ex’s

there’s always a way
to override darkness
and live a life of victory
through Jesus

love is a choice
to love God is a choice
to love others is a choice
to love yourself is a choice

in the blink of an eye
a mind can be changed
in either direction
so focus on the good

“The Cost of Free Will”

I get so mad
when the enemy wins
when he’s given control
by free will

to murder
to rape
to neglect
to abort

you can’t convince me
that God’s in control
when darkness reigns

it’s against His Character

no
there’re times when
hell rejoices
from having it’s way

I wonder if the rejoicing’s
the same as in heaven
when one’s found
the angels sing
well when one’s lost
does hell throw a party

wonder if we loved those
through their darkness
how that’d mess up the enemy’s
thinking

“The Nursery”

thank God my past is dead
and my heart is new

I love when I meet people
and let them know me
and they say
I never would’ve guessed

the gift of becoming love
is that you have your whole life
to love others well

which creates healing
soothes discomfort
opens the door
to be set free

life’s taken a turn
of clarity
instead of being swept off my feet
who can I sweep off their feet

seven children
bore four
killed three

oh how I love
who’s in front of me
and Who’d inside of me
loving those in front of Him

“Cop Out”

in God’s hands
 
many people say it
declare it
but is it true
 
if a man
kills with a gun
was it in God’s hands
or the one holding the gun
 
if a woman
signs papers for an abortion
was it in God’s hands
or the one holding the pen
 
if someone
robs a store
was in God’s hands
or the one holding the goods
 
darkness comes
to steal
kill
and destroy
but many proclaim
 
it’s in God’s hands
 
no
many things are in the hands
of mankind
influenced by darkness
to bring forth
destruction