age

“Blooming Late”

| Laura Lee Bonde

sometimes I feel
as if I’ve started too late
what prize have I become
at this age

sometimes I feel
as if I’m failing to sell flags
because of struggle
at this age

sometimes I feel
as if my house
will always be messy
at this age

and then I remind myself
“feelings aren’t truth”

God, Who cannot lie
reminds me to stay
young in faith
wise in decisions
holy in living

He doesn’t see my age
He doesn’t see past sin
He doesn’t see my house
He looks at my heart
and likes what He sees

I’m not afraid to press through
I’m not afraid to move forward
I’m not afraid to grow up in His heart
I’m not afraid to become love

feelings aren’t sin
actions have potential to be

although I “feel” at times
I’m the only one missing out
on the freedom inside of me

living through feelings
is NOT Kingdom Living
living through Truth
IS

“Fragment of Time”

| Laura Lee Bonde

beauty
wrinkles
dance on one’s face
to the rhythm of a smile
ageless time
breathes by moment to moment
creating a view all its own
the appearance of change
may tremble one’s heart
but the beauty of age
has a time of its own
wrinkles
beauty

“A Couch that Speaks”

| Laura Lee Bonde

breathing
peace
sounds from the couch
what’s God doing to my heart

breathing
asleep
restful break from the park
a home to feel comfortable in

breathing
snoring
in clean clothes with a shave
another night spent in warmth

breathing
serenity
being accepted as-is
being loved and spoiled with food

breathing
resting
once a boy, now old man
a son and a father to others

breathing
coughing
life’s taken its toll
health that seems to be weak

breathing
waking
to realize time’s passed
the park awaits his presence

breathing
peace
sounds from the couch
what’s God doing to my heart

The Age of Beauty

| Laura Lee Bonde

A couple weeks ago, someone contacted JC’s Girls because they wanted to do a photo shoot of a beauty-from-ashes story. Sounds like I might’ve qualified, right? Wrong. They wanted someone under the age of thirty. So why does beauty have an age?

To me, beauty is timeless…ageless. It’s not something one “puts on.” It’s something that “comes out”…that shines from the inside. One of my biggest struggles inside my heart at the porn convention was experiencing my beauty in the midst of an environment where everyone was all dolled up, but it was super important for me to experience this for “me.” It was part of my journey, part of my walk, and so much came out of it. Continue reading →