Okay, this post will have a little bit about Lee, so I’ll let him know later, and if he minds, I’ll delete it. When I spend time with God in the morning, HE guides me on what to release out of my heart, and this is what He chose, so here we go.
Let me back up a little: on Tuesday, I wore my pair of boots, and Lee and I spoke a couple of sentences about them that seemed to come straight out of the “Forrest Gump” movie. Continue reading
What may look broken to you
may be breakthrough for me
If you know me, you’ll see
my dance is pure
my heart is holy
my walk is upright
I have integrity
and know my created value
What may look broken to you
may be breakthrough for me
When Jesus rose from the grave
breakthrough happened
It’s all about seeing that
believing that
knowing that
walking in that
Truth
What may look broken to you
may be breakthrough for me
one by one
they filed through the door
no one looked familiar
one by one
they filed through the door
none were my friends
one
by
one
no one
the performance had started
maybe they were in the back
kneeling down behind a tree
walking through the space
no one looked familiar
smiling at strangers
no one
the final piece
flowed together
like a forest
we all joined hands
and bowed together
friends and family surrounding dancers
and there I stood
alone
no one came
Last summer, I found myself thinking about all the things I had been involved in: bible studies, church services, ministries during the week, etc. I was doing a lot “inside” the church, but that was it, so I talked to God about it, and wouldn’t you know it…He caused me to step outside the church, and the journey has been amazing.
In 2009, I actually started to “read” my bible and fell in love with God, but I was in this uncomfortable state of wanting to live for him and sleeping around. The two just do not go hand in hand, so I would ask for prayer to stop having sex, and it finally worked.
On July 21, 2009, I made a decision in my heart to devote my body to God and informed the men I had been sleeping with. When I focused on God, He was pouring into me like crazy. A funny analogy to go with that was revealed to me right away. When I was a little girl, I was on the swim team. To gain the fastest head-start, it was best to have a clean dive from the get-go. My legs would always open, there would be a splash, which would slow down my momentum. They would constantly say to me, “When you dive in, close your legs.” That was SO true then and applied to my life in 2009. When I closed my legs, I was able to dive into His Word at full speed.
Last night, I felt led to look in my journal for a particular entry to share, and when I realized the date, I was reminded of the above analogy. Isn’t it crazy what time spent with God will do! Five years ago, these would not have been the desires of my heart, but because I’m fully yielded to Him, my desires line up with the calling He has on my life.
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***Journal Entry on July 21, 2014 at 11:16 am***
The desires of my heart:
To make worship flags
To dance with them
To play the violin
To write a book
To reach more people
To love my kids well
To have a husband
To write psalms
Worship Flags and Infinity Scarfs 