so
I just saw a video of me flagging
and don’t see what you see
[sigh]
I saw
fat arms
flat hair
myself
and didn’t see much beauty
[sigh]
still growing
still believing
wanting to see what you see
all the time
so
I just saw a video of me flagging
and don’t see what you see
[sigh]
I saw
fat arms
flat hair
myself
and didn’t see much beauty
[sigh]
still growing
still believing
wanting to see what you see
all the time
“You are beautiful:” those are the words I heard over and over again last night. As I was flagging at Straight Up Worship, Krissi came up and told me how beautiful I was. She just kept saying, “You are beautiful” and wasn’t quite sure why those were the only words she could say. I began to cry and told her, “Because those are the words I need to hear the most,” and God knew that, and even with all those words of beauty spoken over me, this morning, I saw myself as ugly.
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a ring
a gown
a posture of freedom
Last night, I grabbed some friends and went to “Straight Up Praise” at the Rock Church in Point Loma, and WOW, was it AMAZING!! I had never been there before and didn’t know what to expect, and the moment I walked in, I knew something was different. Continue reading
a road
two directions
one traveled one not
sometimes broken
sometimes rocky
sometimes smooth
a mountain Continue reading
What if you weren’t brought up with God?
What if your spirit, soul, and body found it’s way through the dark?
What if you were accused of abusing your child, and out of that birthed divorce, all rights to your son taken away: his location, his voice, his heart? Continue reading
every flag has a story
that’s released through the dance
a story of being lost and found
a story of being found but lost
a story of brokenness, healing, worth Continue reading
I wonder if God waits for us to make the time for Him to fully move through us, to play with our imagination, to make His reality of heaven come to life here on earth. On the second day of my new job, I designed a new flag, and it’s absolutely gorgeous! And wouldn’t you know it: I argued with God about it. Continue reading
looking back and realizing
He was there
looking back and seeing
His hand in my life
not out to destroy me
not out to condemn me
God was there Continue reading