isolation

Abandoned Heart

| Laura Lee Bonde

Many times, God will reveal to me insight on what to write about before the morning comes. This time, I sat in His Presence and waited for His direction.

Last night, after the workshop and a visit with a friend, a very close friend of mine had an emergency and needed to be picked up from a motel. I didn’t hesitate at all and barely broke any speed limit laws to get there.

When this person got in the car, there were tears. Right off the bat, I asked, “Do you need to spend the night?”, and said, “You don’t have to tell me anything.” Continue reading →

“Hide and Seek”

| Laura Lee Bonde

hiding inside
wanting no one to see
but God Who lives in me
gives me away

funny: I hide – He seeks
covering a wound instead of exposing it
living with fear instead of overcoming it

some wounds take time
some hearts won’t give in
when I hold back from God
He doesn’t take

He waits
until I’m willing to give it up
until I’m willing to let things go
until I’m willing to rest in His goodness
until I’m willing
He waits

when I let Him come in and give Him my pain
He teaches
He comforts
He corrects me to wholeness

for me, it was a day
how long do hearts hide
days
weeks
months
years
of isolating inside

there’s a fire in my heart to reach out
a new flame to find those who hide
to speak His life into their souls
as He fills their hearts
with His Love

Ointment of Fear

| Laura Lee Bonde

You know, some days are for reaching out to others, but every once in awhile, I feel God reaching in to me, and yesterday was one of those days.

In mid-morning, I was reminded about a feeling I had the previous day while on outreach, a feeling of longing for a husband. As I was reminded of the feeling, I experienced it all over again, so I decided to ignore it and wash dishes. It didn’t work. Continue reading →

“Freedom to Create”

| Laura Lee Bonde

When I was a little girl, I had dreams: dreams of becoming a mom, dreams of becoming a teacher, dreams of being loved, etc., and along the way, some of those dreams were forgotten (or stolen), and I lived my life as an adult in a place of settling because this-was-just-the-way-it-was-going-to-be. Of course, that was a lie from the pit of hell, but it sure did pull me down to that pit with it, until God… Continue reading →

Passing the Test

| Laura Lee Bonde

Last week, I had gone to the park to surprise Lee, and boy, was he surprised! As I walked up, he was reading, so his head was down, and when I said my usual, “Hi, Lee!”, his whole body smiled. He was so happy. Well, yesterday, he was surprised with another visit, but this time, Barry went down there, too.

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