Jesus

“Apocalypse”

| Laura Lee Bonde

if Jesus came back
would I be ready?

the answer’s “no”
I’m not living
the emotional freedom
that’s His reward
for dying on the cross

THAT’s where I’m determined to get
once again

whether I’m married
in Texas
apart from my children
etc

my path leads to THERE

no one can make me walk
no one can say ‘the right thing’
I have to believe
and live
and get there once again

then
and only then
will I be home
wherever I’m at

Next in Line: Cutting in front of people at the grocery store

| Laura Lee Bonde

Last night, I stayed up till midnight to celebrate my sobriety date, and here it is, almost midnight again, and I’m barely writing about it.

Every year, I seem to write about how I never think about drinking, but this year’s been different because of the last few months.

Lately, I don’t really write about how I’m feeling because, one, I’m married, and, two, I haven’t felt very positive, but to give you a little insight, here was my day, yesterday (the 23rd). Continue reading →

True Joy Doesn’t Always Laugh

| Laura Lee Bonde

I visited another church this morning, and many wonderful things happened, but one of them stood out the most.

Right after they sang a few songs, they announced to walk around and greet people, so I did, and after a few hellos, a woman approached me and said, “Wow, you have so much joy! I see it everywhere.” You know what stood out to me the most about that? She’s never heard me laugh.

Somewhere along the way, I related “my” laughter with HIS joy, but it’s not that at all. When she’d looked into my eyes, His joy was all she saw. I loved that!

Actually, I never laughed once the whole time I was there, and it had nothing to do with my emotional state. I just didn’t find anything funny.

This may seem real simple, but it had a HUGE impact on me. My whole time with Him there was REALLY powerful! There’ll be more to come.