When Others Won’t Let Go

For me, it’s easy to let go of the past, but when someone dear to me “catches” it and throws it back at me, THAT’s the hard part and that’s when I crumble.

Well, this is one of those writing moments when I hope it’s private, meaning I hope no one I know face to face will ever read it, so it may seem strange for me to write it, but if I don’t let out what’s going on inside of me, I’m afraid I might drown in tears, so here’s to taking a risk. Continue reading

“Background Music”

right now
I share a room with
my kids
so as I read
my bible
I hear their breathing
of deep sleep

I’ll miss that
different rooms
different state
different normals

but my excitement
overrides
the missing

I’m so excited
to be in this
new chapter

this new book

pages lined with
love
adventure
discovery

will people miss
the struggling
the loneliness
the barely-making-it
words

there’s no telling

some like to read about
pain
some like to read about
love
some
don’t see a difference

every day
is only the beginning
of what you make of it

“Passing the Buck”

choosing between
mom and dad

it’s not in the bible
but life’s choices
writes stuff in

Kyle says
don’t give them a choice
then they might hate themselves
for making the wrong one

it’s better for them to hate you
for making it for them

getting over hating others
will happen
over time
but
hating one’s self
can be permanent