loneliness

“With Blinders On”

| Laura Lee Bonde

having not forgotten
I dance on this path
trusting
sewing
dying
writing
singing
believing there’s more
if I just keep moving
at times it seems tougher
when I feel a tantrum coming on
lonely
crying
fearing
quitting
noticing
that my foot doesn’t want to move forward
that my life tends to want to run away
but in those moments I remember
the path He’s put me on
oh
there’s a right and a left in view
but my path is straight and narrow
it’s not a sin to cry
but I must move forward
there’s a destiny I see
and every step creates the journey
I want to leave a path for my kids to teach about
I want to leave a legacy to carry on
not of my name but of His
not of my plan but of God’s
two more dresses came today
a total of three in two days
a stranger who’s a friend
dressed in glory
dancing in glory
releasing glory
to reign down again

Ointment of Fear

| Laura Lee Bonde

You know, some days are for reaching out to others, but every once in awhile, I feel God reaching in to me, and yesterday was one of those days.

In mid-morning, I was reminded about a feeling I had the previous day while on outreach, a feeling of longing for a husband. As I was reminded of the feeling, I experienced it all over again, so I decided to ignore it and wash dishes. It didn’t work. Continue reading →

Two Halves Make a Whole

| Laura Lee Bonde

Every once in awhile, I experience a loneliness that HAS to be felt, and last night was one of those nights.

When it’s time to dye flags, the whole process is pretty taxing physically and spiritually, for me anyways, so by the end of the night, I was exhausted, and it’s at that moment of exhaustion when I find I miss a husband the most.

All I picture is sitting down and resting with him, whoever “that” is, but at the same time, I feel super close with God, so I’m never sure how to react, so I just react. Continue reading →