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“False Hope”

| Laura Lee Bonde

I hate it when
dreams seem real
and they’re good
then I wake to reality
and they’re gone

I can’t explain the tears
and won’t stop them

when will that dream come true?
never

a different version will be real
someday
but for now
that dream was a nightmare

Empty Stands

| Laura Lee Bonde

Well, I wasn’t going to write today because writing makes me tired, and I have a lot of flags to sew, so I decided to write a quick poem about what was going on in my heart, and as I read it, I began to weep.

I love it when my own poetry touches my heart.

As I was crying, I couldn’t get rid of what I wanted to write about, couldn’t push it to the side. I’d woken up with it, and evidently, the only way it’ll go away is through my fingers, so through these tears, I’ll give you my heart. Continue reading →

Betrayed into Hiding

| Laura Lee Bonde

Recently, I was talking with a friend about how being betrayed by someone had caused me to go-into-hiding, without even realizing it. The strange part was it had happened to her, too. Since then, I’ve been wondering how often that happens. I’m sure in wondering, God will reveal it.

In my situation, it was all very strange. Around that same time, different responsibilities had been surfacing, money wasn’t pouring in for gas, invitations were coming in all directions, so all of these things were masking what was really going on deep inside of me: I was hiding. Continue reading →

“Freedom to Create”

| Laura Lee Bonde

When I was a little girl, I had dreams: dreams of becoming a mom, dreams of becoming a teacher, dreams of being loved, etc., and along the way, some of those dreams were forgotten (or stolen), and I lived my life as an adult in a place of settling because this-was-just-the-way-it-was-going-to-be. Of course, that was a lie from the pit of hell, but it sure did pull me down to that pit with it, until God… Continue reading →