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Weather Update

| Laura Lee Bonde

I have always loved the weather…always wanted to experience all four seasons, and I have always appreciated the clouds more than any other characteristic of nature, but ever since I’ve become friends with Lee, I’ve noticed the weather a lot more, and it doesn’t always bring a smile to my face.

The clouds…I absolutely LOVE the clouds. If I had to choose between a sunny day and a grey, cloudy one, I would choose the grey, cloudy one every time. Yesterday, as I was at my desk, I was watching the weather through the window: the trees were dancing in the wind; the clouds were blocking the sun from shining. It was beautiful, so I stepped out onto the balcony and experienced my happiness crash. Continue reading →

“Buffet of Love”

| Laura Lee Bonde

Standing, looking
all-you-can-eat
seeing choices
and being able to pick

a little bit here
and a little bit there
forms a mound
on the plate

when given the option
of chair or booth
he gladly said booth
for the cushion

when a man who lives outside
sits on a cushion
something happens

when a man without food
enjoys all-you-can-eat
something happens

when a man without a bed
sleeps on a couch
something happens

when a man without a home
takes a warm shower
something happens

Living without limits
Loving without boundaries
becoming like the One
Who lives in me

“A Part of Me”

| Laura Lee Bonde

Beauty undefined
but known within
gently singing a song
of elegance

Heart unhindered
by the pains of the past
becoming love like the
Father inside

Loving without receiving
giving without wanting
hugging without needing
human contact

Mothering through heaven
caring for each soul
spending time, being
one with them

Trust not foreign
purity woven throughout
integrity, wholeness
joy abounds

Living without limit
Loving without boundaries
while God’s plan unravels
beneath each step

 

Learning to Dance

| Laura Lee Bonde

Last night, the beauty of JC’s Girls at the Rock was revealed again. Our ministry isn’t only there for those currently in the strip clubs. Our ministry reaches out to all women and men who need to know God loves them right where they’re at. But when you have a past similar to mine, fitting into a church family may be difficult.

I remember the simple act of stopping by 7-Eleven. The music would sound through the speaker, and my body would instantly move, while thoughts of sex would enter my mind. This was very normal to me. Continue reading →

“So Not Normal”

| Laura Lee Bonde

Normal was cussing
calling names
screaming
slamming doors

Normal was drinking
passing out
missing life
passing by

Normal was forgetting
not wanting to move
crying
over selfish desires

Normal was laughing
at work but
yelling
at home

Normal was darkness
without light
without hope
without love

and then I met Him
fell in love with my kids
encountered His Love
changed my mind

to create a NEW normal

FREEDOM

Free POOP

| Laura Lee Bonde

It’s not what you’re thinking.

Yesterday morning, Nathan wanted to take Mentos to school because they’re allowed to eat them during testing, so we stopped at Food4Less to pick some up. Do you ever have trouble deciding what to buy? Nathan was quick about it, but I was in the snack aisle, debating. Later on, I wondered if my debate was all part of God’s plan to put me in the right place at the right time.

As we headed out of the store Continue reading →

In the Presence of Honor

| Laura Lee Bonde

Last night, I was invited to a very special meeting and ended up in a room full of people honoring one another. I sat there thinking, “How did I get invited to this? Thank you, God, for thinking of me.” It was truly amazing: a night of ordination, a night of declaring what’s to come, a night of honoring those stepping up into their calling. There’s just something about “honor,” and I’ve been talking to God a lot about it lately because I haven’t fully understood it, and I felt like God answered a lot of my questions by placing me in that room. Continue reading →

Wanting to Be a Mother

| Laura Lee Bonde

This morning, I was remembering things from childhood, and as I remembered how I wanted to be a mother, I wept. This was around 5:30 am. I had a time in my mind to work on flags at 5:30 am, but when I wept about wanting to be a mother, a desire rose in me to write about it. I tried to ignore it, but I can’t, so flags will have to wait. Continue reading →

The Color of Love

| Laura Lee Bonde

In everyone’s life, the color of love has a different hue, a different shade, a different look that capture’s the eye, a heart, a smile. God is constantly painting the picture of my life, and love takes on a different color all the time, but let me share with you what it looks like now. Continue reading →