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“Knowing Without Reading”

| Laura Lee Bonde

[written 8/10/16]

so often I read posts
of good things happening
of people doing well
happiness abound
and in the comments
I read
‘God loves you so much’
‘you’re His favorite’
etc

but if one’s discouraged
and reads of this love
are they left thinking
‘does He love me?’
not many posts of turmoil
have comments of
‘God loves you so much’
‘you’re His favorite’
etc

it’s better for one to know
who-they-are
and not go off of
how-they-feel
because
no matter what
‘God loves you so much’
‘you’re His favorite’
and more

“Hitchhiking”

| Laura Lee Bonde

I’ve traveled beyond
where I’ve gone
fast forwarding to know
Your Will

not waiting for Your lead
not balancing in Your light
but tripping in the field

as I close my eyes
and open my heart
I see Love
all the way through

“Around the Ring”

| Laura Lee Bonde

as much as I thought I was ready
to be a wife
I found I wasn’t ready
to be a wife

to have my body
not my own

to have time
but not alone

to have a voice
that doesn’t matter

to have ideas
but be shutdown

to have to care for
instead of cared for

or being cared for
instead of care for

to be in a city
without any friends

to have a future
without an end

I know it WILL BE good
it’s just a matter of time
and just a matter of road
to trudge on

learning to be a wife
learning to be a husband
learning to live together
as one

holy matrimony!!

“Fruit Cemetery”

| Laura Lee Bonde

I love it when
a thought comes through
and passes right by
like the wind

those are the thoughts
I take captive
blowing each away
before it takes root

but not all the time

some thoughts
I make a place for
setting them at a table to feast
on the fruits of my spirit

nibbling at the joy
the love
the patience
and more

not even noticing the plates
until they’re empty
feeling an absence

of course
none of that’s real
nothing can be taken
only buried

“Wife v. Mom”

| Laura Lee Bonde

people wonder if I’m excited
absolutely
but a part of me is sad
for what my kids are enduring

having to choose
between mom or dad
having to leave
the friends they’ve known
having to miss
those last days of school

their little hearts are so stressed
one struggling in school
treading water
one quitting sports
why bother
Carolyn leaving her boyfriend
Nathan missing the dance
and there’s more

so am excited?
yes
does my mommy heart hurt?
yes
will we walk through this together?
absolutely

hopefully
while loving each other
well

A Community Refugee

| Laura Lee Bonde

Every community has different groups of people, and some of these groups of people form their own community. This morning, I’m going to share with you a little bit about the homeless community in Balboa Park.

As most of you know, I have a homeless friend named Lee, whom I met in the park in March of last year. In the time I’ve known him, he’s NEVER called me. Our friendship’s consisted of us spending time together, whenever I had the chance to stop by, and on many of those visits, I’d bring him home with me for days at a time. Well, some have been watching. Continue reading →

True Love

| Laura Lee Bonde

Scott is an amazing man: after all I’ve done to him, after all I’ve put him through, after all I’ve said through actions, he still loves me!