parenting
AHHHH!
some days
don’t make sense
moods
crashing together
joking
somehow stops
feelings hurt
tears run down
how is it
some days
I’m a better parent
than others
and some days
I’m worse
I’m glad
I don’t get graded
would I pass
or fail
it’s sometimes hard
to read other’s pain
of losing a loved one
at Christmas time
I have moments
of maybe I shouldn’t have joy
like maybe I should
withhold my memories
but life isn’t comparison
of what I have and you don’t
or what you have and I don’t
life is about living and loving well
to be love for those around you
strengthening their being
to change the world
around them
for wherever they step
to remember the times
of laughter
of love
of moments
no one can take
what’s inside
no one can shape
what’s been formed
to love my kids every moment
and be love that they can see
makes a difference
that changes the world
The other night, I blew up at Nathan. Since then, I’ve wanted to write about it. I’m not going to go into a lot of detail because it’s not about me or Nathan. No, it’s about reactions…MY reactions.
Well, I wasn’t going to go into detail, but I’m finding myself “stuck” without it, so here we go. Continue reading
I hate it when memories
cause pain
but at least
when it happens
I give it to God
and breathe in truth Continue reading
Okay, remember the other night, I was at Carolyn’s band performance? Well, that evening, I found myself totally content on where I was and haven’t differed since.
While I was watching Carolyn, I realized how nothing was distracting me; there was nothing in the way of me seeing her, watching her, taking every movement in, and then it dawned on me what a priceless gift it was to be a single mom. Continue reading
Last night, I’d planned a date night with my daughters, but God had a different plan, so I followed it and had an amazing evening!
On my way to pick up Carolyn, Katie called to let me know that she was unable to get the evening off of work and forgot to tell me. When I reached Carolyn and asked if she wanted to invite someone else. She mentioned a friend, so we tried to reach him.
Although we were a little short on time, God didn’t seem to mind and made everything work out perfectly. We were all able to eat and get to the Rock before the concert began. It ended up our seats were taken, so we had to settle for better seats. It was perfect!
So, let me tell you a little bit about Carolyn’s friend. Continue reading
On Saturday morning, Nathan and I were sitting on my bed, talking, and somehow, we headed down memory lane about my childhood, and I told him about my decision to become a mother.
I’ll never forget it: I was holding my Cabbage Patch doll and talking about how I was going to be a mother someday, how I was going to love my kids like I’d never been loved, so they could experience hugs and kisses, and as I remembered, I began to cry. Nathan almost cried, too. Continue reading
Throughout my years of recovery (from alcohol and from hell), I’ve remembered many things, some of them good and some of them not so good. When it comes to memories of my dad, there aren’t very many.
In the past, most memories I’ve had of him were attached with pain, but through learning how to reject the pain, I now only have memories, and most of them that I remember bring a smile to my face, like the one I had this morning. Continue reading
I see how the enemy
gets into the home
to steal from the children
who they are
adults fighting
and then loving
loving
and then fighting Continue reading
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