“Prayer Bucket”

there’re just some things
that hurt my heart
are out of my
control

those moments when
prayers said
seem so
small
and prayers answered
are huge

words
poured out like rain
held inside
every tear

so many struggling
if only I could
help them all
if only I could
support them

it’s hard to keep going
when all seems lost
it’s hard to find value
when you don’t know your worth

this poem in code
could be for many
God help
them all

“Background Music”

right now
I share a room with
my kids
so as I read
my bible
I hear their breathing
of deep sleep

I’ll miss that
different rooms
different state
different normals

but my excitement
overrides
the missing

I’m so excited
to be in this
new chapter

this new book

pages lined with
love
adventure
discovery

will people miss
the struggling
the loneliness
the barely-making-it
words

there’s no telling

some like to read about
pain
some like to read about
love
some
don’t see a difference

every day
is only the beginning
of what you make of it