How do you put into words what went on at the porn convention? You can’t. How do you understand through a picture? You can’t, so if you really want to know about this weekend, ask God to explain what you read and see.
Through each one of us on the team, so much went on, but to explain it’d be a challenge because, sometimes, it’s hard to put the heart into words, but from time to time, I’ll attempt to show you parts of mine. Continue reading
Over the weekend, some friends of mine and I went to the porn convention in Los Angeles to love on people. Many of you know how I used to be in the adult entertainment industry. Now, I go back in the dark as a light, in case anyone wants to see. My writings (some I’ve already posted) will be reflecting this convention.
What we thought was going to be a small convention “grew” in size. The hall IS smaller, but the audience is many. Continue reading
Darkness has many shades.
I also like, “There are many shades of darkness.”
being free
to do what you want
isn’t freedom
sadness rises in my heart
as I watch them
watch them
driven by darkness
forced to look
not knowing they’re forced
craze in their eyes
HAVING to have more
yet never satisfied
porn lures you in
and leaves you hanging
thinking of what more to say
to GET the girl
what more to do
to lure her in
a game of cat and mouse
one always on the move
one always chasing
watching what “literally”
USED to turn me on
having no effect
a freedom
not only lived
but given away
I wonder who’ll want it
today
if you want to know
where I’m at
listen to my heart
if you want to be
my friend
don’t correct my feelings
some of the best advice
I’ve ever been given
has come from God
most the time I listen
sometimes I don’t
some of the worst advice
I’ve ever been given
has come from friends
sometimes I listen
most the time I don’t
one of the most powerful things
of me loving Scott
is when it happened
I didn’t turn to friends
for counsel
I immediately went to God
alone
and followed HIS direction
here we go again
new year
new porn convention
same tears
sigh
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