can be good or bad
angelic or demonic
can weigh the scale
of decisions

but at times
you won’t know
which influenced you
until after
the choice’s been made

which may be too late

the point past no return
still has a panoramic view


it’s funny
what I’d vowed to God
I’ve let slip away

how I’d wanted to be treated
what I’d wanted for my kids
where I’d wanted us to live

I thought I’d listened
through God’s heart
but as I live through my choices
I stop and wonder

if what I valued is not there
was my trust in another
if this IS God’s heart
will it get better?

mental instability
emotional insecurity
spiritul immaturity
are tough to ignore
but as one who is love
I HAVE to believe
there is hope