I Might Have Cancer

Well, this morning’s biobsy was another adventure.

At first, they couldn’t find anything. They had the measurements but couldn’t see anything. While they went to discuss things, I was left in the room and cried.

You know what? Crying is normal and so is sadness. My counselor has been coaching me on how to feel sadness without shame or guilt, so this morning, I felt sad and cried.

I knew God was with with me and always will be, but in those moments of self and fear, I seem to feel deeply.

When the nurse came back in, she took me to the waiting area until a room with a stronger machine became available. When a room opened up, she could finally see.

When the doctor came in, he looked at the screen and said, “If the results come back negative, I want to have an MRI biobsy done on her.”

Great. My favorite. Not.

The doctor took 6 samples and was frank with me. He said, “If pathology sends back negative results, I’m having an MRI biopsy done on you.” I replied, “I hate you.” He laughed.

By this time, we had already been joking and laughing quite a bit, and he was well aware of my feelings toward the MRI, but he’s definitely concerned and doesn’t want anything to get missed.

I thanked him, told him he had an honest face, and that I trusted him.

Now, we wait. In 2-3 days, we’ll get the results.

If they’re negative, I go on to have an MRI biopsy. If they’re positive, we move forward through the next step.

4 thoughts on “I Might Have Cancer

  1. Hey sweet friend! I am praying for you in this season of MIGHT. Remember: God has not given you a Spirit of F.E.A.R. (False Evidence Appearing Real) but of power and love and a sound mind (2 Tim 1:7). When the fear of Might tries to pull you down, call upon the Lord — the Mighty One — who will get you through whatever is ahead. Praying for a covering of peace to keep you in the presence of the Lord as you wait for results. Hang in there — God will never leave you or forsake you, and when you cry, He will hold you and wipe away your tears.

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  2. Hey sweet friend. Praying for peace and comfort to surround you in this Might season. God did not give you a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind. Your Abba Father adores you. Keep your mind fixed on Him. He will never leave you nor forsake you. And when you shed tears, remember that He wipes them away. When you’re faced with the fear of Might, call upon the Mighty One and take refuge under His wings.

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