If you think I’m sulking and falling apart, you’re wrong. But I’m definitely still “feeling” and probably will throughout this whole journey.

Yesterday, I reminded myself that this is a wonderful opportunity for growth. And just like with growth, there’ll be pain along the way.

And yes, I’ve still found excitement through this.

I’m excited to learn, so I’ll be better equipped to be there for those women God puts in my life, so I can help them through it. And for that, I am excited!

I know about rape and sexual assault and how no matter how hard you scrub in the shower, it will never come off. That’s what cancer feels like, so when a woman says it feels like rape, I’ll understand.

Understanding one another is key to being able to help one another. I don’t know why that makes a difference, but it does.

I know that yearning feeling of wishing I was in love, so that someone could hold me with intent.

I’m learning what not to say and how to be there for someone.

I’ve ordered my new sheets and will be getting a mattress pad to make my bed more comfy, just in case I need to spend a lot of time in it.

I’ll be able to help prepare someone to make their journey just a little bit easier.

This IS an opportunity for growth, and I’m ceasing it!!

Yes, I’ll be writing as I go through things, but never miss that important part…”as I GO THROUGH things.”

I never stop walking. I just like to talk while I walk. #cancersucks