When I think back
to dancing on stage
the thought of dancing with flags
didn’t exist
When I think back
to drinking every night Continue reading
Author: Laura Lee Bonde
“Love is Alive”
faithful
willing
teaching
mocked
ignored
abandoned
faithful
willing
teaching
betrayed
beaten
abused
faithful
willing
teaching
nailed
hung
pierced
Faithful
Willing
Teaching
Loved through life
Loved through death
Rose for us
to become Love
“Everyone Counts”
When faith is lost
and hope is gone
and no one comes around
what happens
Is that when people
fall into despair
seclude from others
and get lost in their mind
Is that when death
creeps in and
strangles the life
out of the heart
Is that when sadness
overwhelms every thought
and depression becomes
a weight that sinks the soul
Is that when tears
flood the inside
drowning the future
of becoming real
Is that when laughter
becomes buried
and smiles become
a thought never expressed
Never be afraid to be a friend
Never be afraid to give a smile
Never be afraid to say a prayer
It may restore hope
It may restore faith
It may restore life, a life worth living
Good Friday Cries
I am so glad I didn’t wear makeup yesterday. I was crying on and off all day…all of them good. What a happy bottle God has with my tears in them! Listen to how God is working: on Thursday night, I met a man who offered to do the marketing for my flag business for FREE, and yesterday, a woman called to order flags who is a publisher. I believe my devotional book will be available sooner rather than later. Anyway, enough of that. Let’s go to Balboa Park. Continue reading
My New Dance
Probably since in the womb, when music would play, my body would move. I have always loved to dance, but when I became a Christian, I had heard that dancing was bad. Well, in most of my life, it had been, so when worship music would come on, my body would move to the rhythm, but I would control it because of the feelings that would overcome me.
When my body would move to the sound of worship, I would feel dirty…filthy…like I wanted attention, money, sex, so I would do my best to stop the movement but didn’t know how to stop the negative feelings associated with it and never spoke a word about it to anyone. Continue reading
Digging Deeper
Yesterday, pizza lunch was great with Lee and Mike. We were all starving. Since I’m not homeless, I probably should’ve eaten a little before as to not devour part of the pizza, but I didn’t, so I ate two slices. It was one of the best pizzas I’ve ever eaten. Next time, I’m ordering an extra large, so we can all be full. Lee dropped half of his second slice, so I picked it up and brushed it off. If it was me, I probably would’ve eaten it, but he set it aside for the squirrels and grabbed another slice. As we were eating, we were talking. Continue reading
Love Covers Violation
For three years, since I moved into this place, I’ve left my car unlocked in the driveway. The street has always been safe, until now.
Yesterday morning, when I reached the car to leave for work, I realized someone had been in it: glove box junk taken out, napkins and cigarette ashes on the seat, cd holder open, etc. The only thing worth taking (for a non believer) was the loose change, which the person took. Immediately, I thought, “This won’t affect me. I know who I am in Christ,” and carried on with my morning.
I warned Katie what happened, told her to be careful, and left for work. As I was talking to God, I realized…it affected me, Continue reading
Empty Love
Today, in Balboa Park, I spotted Mike sitting on the ground near an empty chair, so I knew Lee wasn’t far. I was glad to see Mike. That meant, if he WAS the person Lee offended, he was over it. I walked up, hugged him, and sat down. Soon enough, Lee joined us.
It’s amazing how they expect me, and I show up. I believe it’s a mutual gladness: I’m glad to see them waiting, and they’re glad to see me coming. We started chatting about politics a little because Lee’s reading a book about Bill Clinton, and Mike’s next in line. In chatting about that stuff, Lee went further back in time. Continue reading
Easily Offended
Yesterday, I grabbed my chair and headed out to spend time with Lee in the park. On my way there, I thought about all the people I “could’ve” been praying for but wouldn’t be because of the time I spend with Lee, and God told me, “I have you there for Lee right now.” That seems so easy…too easy. I really enjoy my talks with Lee, and yesterday was no different. Continue reading
Worship Flags and Infinity Scarfs 