depression

“Horizontal Leaps”

| Laura Lee Bonde

to know You
is to love You
every breath of doubt
every thought of doom
every shadow of sadness
won’t stand up
to You

as I’ve trusted before
I trust again
the calling
the plans
the dance
of my life
now teach me to trust

man

A Stroll in God’s Park

| Laura Lee Bonde

In the beginning, when I’d had it planned to move out here to Texas, I wasn’t interested in finding a church right away, but because of the difficult times during packing and the drive, I KNEW I needed to find like-minded people to be around and knew I’d be needing a church.

During that first week in Harlingen, I’d been SO close to sinking into a dark depression and knew I was in trouble, if I didn’t get out and about, so right away, I began going to church. Continue reading →

“Clock Hands”

| Laura Lee Bonde

week one
I danced with the devil
week two
I started the business
week three
I shipped off some orders
week four
I’m off and running

all without leaving His Hands

how could the same month fly by
where every minute seemed to stand still

“Sentence tbd”

| Laura Lee Bonde

let me try to explain
how I feel

I’m in a cell
a prison inside
to my right
a comfy bed

satan sheets
a pillow of depression
a blanket of isolation

it looks so comfy

to my left
a gated door
shut but unlocked
waiting for me to walk thru

yet I stand there

the only way
through the door
is to step
the only way to step
is to speak

yet my voice feels lost

every once in awhile
I glance at the bed

[written 6/4/16]

“Prayer Bucket”

| Laura Lee Bonde

there’re just some things
that hurt my heart
are out of my
control

those moments when
prayers said
seem so
small
and prayers answered
are huge

words
poured out like rain
held inside
every tear

so many struggling
if only I could
help them all
if only I could
support them

it’s hard to keep going
when all seems lost
it’s hard to find value
when you don’t know your worth

this poem in code
could be for many
God help
them all

Walking the Streets

| Laura Lee Bonde

Yesterday morning, my friend, Sal, and I met at the Lemon Grove trolley station to see what God had in store for people. It was the second time we’d seen each other, but you would’ve thought we’d known each other for a while because that’s the Kingdom connection we all have in Christ.

When we came together, we were both sharing how we used to “need” outreaches to reach out to people but now, that’s not the case because it’s turned into a lifestyle for each of us. We met to teach another young man how to pray on the streets, but he ended up not coming, so Sal and I decided to change the world without him. Continue reading →