the further I got away from writing
the louder doubt became that I’m even able to write
is there anything in my heart that needs hearing?
is it just another voice to drown out what’s real?
doubt has a cunning way of forming questions
and answers
but the secret in coming against it
is to have faith
because THAT will get you past all fear
doubt
“Forks”
confusion
travels with
fear
and creates
doubt
which changes
direction
“Intercourse”
when feelings
have sex
with opinions
they conceive
advice
and birth
doubt
“Without a Map”
someplace in my heart
words have grown silent
kept away
to hide how I feel
there’s just so much
going on
if my thoughts were a city
there’d be roads without signs
conversations without people
a cloud covering of doubt
not a good place to live
such a difference
from before
I think about decisions I’ve made
and ones pending
what’s worth the fight?
what needs to change?
I’ll never encourage one
to marry a stranger
I’ll never give advice
without listening
I used to think I was a leader
but now…
it might not be a good time
to follow
Our Rock Concert
Last night, I’d planned a date night with my daughters, but God had a different plan, so I followed it and had an amazing evening!
On my way to pick up Carolyn, Katie called to let me know that she was unable to get the evening off of work and forgot to tell me. When I reached Carolyn and asked if she wanted to invite someone else. She mentioned a friend, so we tried to reach him.
Although we were a little short on time, God didn’t seem to mind and made everything work out perfectly. We were all able to eat and get to the Rock before the concert began. It ended up our seats were taken, so we had to settle for better seats. It was perfect!
So, let me tell you a little bit about Carolyn’s friend. Continue reading
“Frozen in Time”
when hell-freezes-over
where did that come from Continue reading
Hemmed In
Yesterday, as I was making flags, God was speaking to me about the silk of the thread being woven into the material around the weight, and He was relating it with Christ to the church and the husband in the home. I’m not even sure how this will all flow because it doesn’t feel very complete in my head, but God’s telling me to write about it, so we’ll see what happens. Continue reading
A Step to Know
Most of you know that my ex-husband was in town and had been staying with us for over a week. The way he took care of us all was simply amazing: treating us out to eat all the time; a couple trips to Sam’s Club; Disneyland; trips to different stores, etc. We all spent a lot of good time together, and then on Tuesday, he took the little ones to buy new clothes for school.
As we were out and about shopping, God had a few things on His list for me to do. At the first store we went to in the mall, a young lady was working…all tatted out. The print and colors on her shirt matched one of her tattoos very well, so I commented on it. She said, “Yeah,” giggled, and kept on walking past. As she walked away, God began to speak to me about her. Continue reading
Not Dying Out
When I first learned to make worship flags, it was really tough for me to create. My friend, David, is the one who taught me. I would be in front of the white silk, silent…afraid to put any color on at all. He would be nearby, encouraging me to think of different colors, styles, etc. It was SO hard for me, and then, after I learned, I was on my own.
The first time I dyed flags at my home, I wanted him there (simply because I didn’t think I could do it on my own), That first day, I called him so many times. I, literally, did not think I could do it, but then I remembered something I learned. Continue reading
Worship Flags and Infinity Scarfs 