Today, I’d like to open my heart about Nathan because he needs your prayers, but before I share about his heart, let me show you inside my mommy-heart. Continue reading
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Game Points
After Nathan’s workout last Thursday, he’s barely been able to walk, so when the time came around yesterday for him to go back, I gave him the choice of what to do. Continue reading
Peekaboo
Today, I’m going to hide-out on my website. If you know me, you know what that means. In reality, it doesn’t make sense to hide out where the world can see you, but to me, it makes perfect sense, so here we go. Continue reading
Bouncing off the Walls
Last week, we went to Verizon to switch our phones over to Scott’s plan, and in doing so, we had to turn our old phones in for new ones. Who’d’ve thought Verizon would’ve broken my laughter free from prison.
As we were waiting for the sales rep, Scott and I were discussing (away from them) which phones the kids could pick from, and as we were about to tell them their options, Scott said, “Your mom said you don’t need phones,” which caused me to laugh a BIG laugh.
Immediately, every head in the store turned to look: some out of shock; some out of surprise; maybe some out of fear (my laugh scares people sometimes), and of course, Carolyn smiled, while covering her face, and Nathan smiled, as he sank a little lower. It felt good. Continue reading
Fitting in Out of Place
To say this move hasn’t been hard on the kids would be lying. It’s been (at times) excruciating for them: no friends; nothing familiar; without their dad;…I could go on and on, but you get the idea. Well, little by little, things get better.
There’re moments when they cry.
There’re moments when they’re moody.
There’re moments when their silent. Continue reading
“Wife v. Mom”
people wonder if I’m excited
absolutely
but a part of me is sad
for what my kids are enduring
having to choose
between mom or dad
having to leave
the friends they’ve known
having to miss
those last days of school
their little hearts are so stressed
one struggling in school
treading water
one quitting sports
why bother
Carolyn leaving her boyfriend
Nathan missing the dance
and there’s more
so am excited?
yes
does my mommy heart hurt?
yes
will we walk through this together?
absolutely
hopefully
while loving each other
well
Goodbyes
I used to think starting a business was the hardest thing I’d ever done, but now I know, it’s leaving my son.
“All That Matters”
it’s easy to look back
at the mother I
was
but when I see my reflection
I see the mother I
am
I’m a good mom
and love my kids so
when I see parents act
the way “I” used to
my heart aches
I pray for those
who resemble
what I “used” to be
“Emptier Nest”
sometimes you don’t realize
how much you hold onto
someone or something
until you let go Continue reading
Worship Flags and Infinity Scarfs 