“Richness Within”

so
my steps led me Here
HERE
here

a life
not to be measured
by the world
yet

how could having nothing
feel like everything
and having everything
feel like nothing

starting over again
with everything
integrity
beauty
legacy

and having nothing
money
things
career

comparison destroys
hope
vision
accomplishment

having beautiful kids
a loving heart
a good good Father
and faith
will carry me through
each new step

“Foreign Land”

for the longest time
I’ve mapped my way around
before leaving the house
thinking the route

I couldn’t do that here
until yesterday

yes! a normal beginning
never realizing
the normal I had
until it was gone

beginning a normal
in
a normal beginning
or far from it

“Set Up”

why didn’t I get to choose
from my mind
from my heart
why was it from God’s heart

I feel cheated

now
living in Texas
no friends
no laughter
no
dancing

yet

it’s my

forever

“Background Music”

right now
I share a room with
my kids
so as I read
my bible
I hear their breathing
of deep sleep

I’ll miss that
different rooms
different state
different normals

but my excitement
overrides
the missing

I’m so excited
to be in this
new chapter

this new book

pages lined with
love
adventure
discovery

will people miss
the struggling
the loneliness
the barely-making-it
words

there’s no telling

some like to read about
pain
some like to read about
love
some
don’t see a difference

every day
is only the beginning
of what you make of it

Just Keep Swimming

In one week, I received SIXTEEN scarf orders. Do you even “know” what that means?

It means I don’t have to quit and find a job.

It means this business will remain and grow.

It means, every time I cried and sobbed, there’d be an outcome (if I didn’t give up).

EVERY TIME I contemplated quitting, I KNEW I was supposed to continue on, but it didn’t make any common sense. Continue reading