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Abandoned Heart

| Laura Lee Bonde

Many times, God will reveal to me insight on what to write about before the morning comes. This time, I sat in His Presence and waited for His direction.

Last night, after the workshop and a visit with a friend, a very close friend of mine had an emergency and needed to be picked up from a motel. I didn’t hesitate at all and barely broke any speed limit laws to get there.

When this person got in the car, there were tears. Right off the bat, I asked, “Do you need to spend the night?”, and said, “You don’t have to tell me anything.” Continue reading →

“I Do”

| Laura Lee Bonde

it’s not about a husband
or how to pay the rent
it’s not about having sex
or being in someone’s arms
it’s not about responsibility
or making someone smile
no
marriage is about Kingdom Living
about releasing the glory of God
it’s about becoming one in Him
becoming love
and changing the world

the need is gone
the want is gone
the desire remains

“Listings of Freedom?”

| Laura Lee Bonde

craigslist
a place to find furniture
a place to find work
a place to find sex

I just went on craigslist
to the personals
and began to cry

what’s next, God?

I created an account
and will follow His lead

what’s next

Control Your Soul

| Laura Lee Bonde

Last week, I was sitting at my desk, and the thought of one of my single friends came to mind, and as I thought of him, my body reacted in a way that I don’t allow. In that moment, I spoke to my soul out loud and told it to submit to my spirit, and I told my body to submit to my soul. Then, I told my spirit to listen to the voice of God’s Holy Spirit, and I blessed my spirit with purity, righteousness, holiness, and, in an instant, the arousal went away. Is it that easy? Yes! Continue reading →

My New Dance

| Laura Lee Bonde

Probably since in the womb, when music would play, my body would move. I have always loved to dance, but when I became a Christian, I had heard that dancing was bad. Well, in most of my life, it had been, so when worship music would come on, my body would move to the rhythm, but I would control it because of the feelings that would overcome me.

When my body would move to the sound of worship, I would feel dirty…filthy…like I wanted attention, money, sex, so I would do my best to stop the movement but didn’t know how to stop the negative feelings associated with it and never spoke a word about it to anyone. Continue reading →