When I was a little girl, I saw Olivia Newton John in a couple movies: “Grease” and “Xandadu.” I knew all the songs from “Grease,” and my aunt and grandma would rave about how I sounded just-like-her. At eight years old, I was taken to see “Xanadu” and walked away thinking I looked just-like-her.
One day, I was playing, and as I was playing, I caught a glimpse of my reflection. I was so upset. I started crying. It was a lie! Literally, I had imagined myself “being” her and looked nothing like her. Maybe that was part of the reason why I didn’t look at my reflection much. A little while ago, I was reminded of all this.
As I was driving to work, I was thanking God for how He molded me. I was thanking Him for how He created me, and then it dawned on me: I changed my look. My teeth were eaten away by drugs. That’s why I wear full dentures, and from the very beginning, it changed my look. I began to weep, but in an instant, it turned to thanksgiving again.
I started thanking God for these beautiful new teeth that He blessed me with and the new look that was formed from them. I started thanking Him for the way I looked and for the way my smile captivates people. That feeling of regret melted away instantly, and I opened my heart for God to teach me more about my reflection.
On my retreat, I spent a lot of my time in bed: resting, reading, praying, and as I leaned up against the pillows, I had one view: my reflection. God spoke to me about beautiful things regarding that, but those are for me and Him.
It’s not about the reflection that I “see.” It’s about the reflection of my heart, the reflection of what’s “in” me. Last night, I may have “looked” together, but soon after I arrived, I was crying in Rick’s arms. Actually, I cried a few times during the day as well, but sometimes, I think the tears soften the clay for God to mold (if my heart’s in the right place).
My reflection is found in God’s beautiful Word, and as I follow His voice, I like what I see: the me that He created to be ONE with Him. Tell someone they’re beautiful today. They may “need” to hear it.
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