Beyond the thoughts
there is more life
Beyond the sunset
there is more ocean
Beyond the sunrise
there is more land
Beyond the clouds
there is more heaven
Beyond the voice
there is more feeling
Beyond the tears
there’s a bigger picture
painted by God
more than the eye may see
more than the ear may hear
more than the heart may feel
more than the soul may know
I have always loved the weather…always wanted to experience all four seasons, and I have always appreciated the clouds more than any other characteristic of nature, but ever since I’ve become friends with Lee, I’ve noticed the weather a lot more, and it doesn’t always bring a smile to my face.
The clouds…I absolutely LOVE the clouds. If I had to choose between a sunny day and a grey, cloudy one, I would choose the grey, cloudy one every time. Yesterday, as I was at my desk, I was watching the weather through the window: the trees were dancing in the wind; the clouds were blocking the sun from shining. It was beautiful, so I stepped out onto the balcony and experienced my happiness crash. Continue reading
The weather looks different
when your friend lives in the park
the rain falls harder
the wind blows colder
the sun beats nearer
the heat burns hotter
the cold chills deeper
When your friend lives in the park
the weather looks different
breathing
peace
sounds from the couch
what’s God doing to my heart
breathing
asleep
restful break from the park
a home to feel comfortable in
breathing
snoring
in clean clothes with a shave
another night spent in warmth
breathing
serenity
being accepted as-is
being loved and spoiled with food
breathing
resting
once a boy, now old man
a son and a father to others
breathing
coughing
life’s taken its toll
health that seems to be weak
breathing
waking
to realize time’s passed
the park awaits his presence
breathing
peace
sounds from the couch
what’s God doing to my heart
Standing, looking
all-you-can-eat
seeing choices
and being able to pick
a little bit here
and a little bit there
forms a mound
on the plate
when given the option
of chair or booth
he gladly said booth
for the cushion
when a man who lives outside
sits on a cushion
something happens
when a man without food
enjoys all-you-can-eat
something happens
when a man without a bed
sleeps on a couch
something happens
when a man without a home
takes a warm shower
something happens
Living without limits
Loving without boundaries
becoming like the One
Who lives in me
Beauty undefined
but known within
gently singing a song
of elegance
Heart unhindered
by the pains of the past
becoming love like the
Father inside
Loving without receiving
giving without wanting
hugging without needing
human contact
Mothering through heaven
caring for each soul
spending time, being
one with them
Trust not foreign
purity woven throughout
integrity, wholeness
joy abounds
Living without limit
Loving without boundaries
while God’s plan unravels
beneath each step
Last night, the beauty of JC’s Girls at the Rock was revealed again. Our ministry isn’t only there for those currently in the strip clubs. Our ministry reaches out to all women and men who need to know God loves them right where they’re at. But when you have a past similar to mine, fitting into a church family may be difficult.
I remember the simple act of stopping by 7-Eleven. The music would sound through the speaker, and my body would instantly move, while thoughts of sex would enter my mind. This was very normal to me. Continue reading
Normal was cussing
calling names
screaming
slamming doors
Normal was drinking
passing out
missing life
passing by
Normal was forgetting
not wanting to move
crying
over selfish desires
Normal was laughing
at work but
yelling
at home
Normal was darkness
without light
without hope
without love
and then I met Him
fell in love with my kids
encountered His Love
changed my mind
to create a NEW normal
FREEDOM
It’s not what you’re thinking.
Yesterday morning, Nathan wanted to take Mentos to school because they’re allowed to eat them during testing, so we stopped at Food4Less to pick some up. Do you ever have trouble deciding what to buy? Nathan was quick about it, but I was in the snack aisle, debating. Later on, I wondered if my debate was all part of God’s plan to put me in the right place at the right time.
As we headed out of the store Continue reading
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