When I’d walked into those doors, I was still drinking, still using, still “doing” a lot of things, but I wasn’t concerned about any of that. For me, I thought it was too late. I was there for THEM, remember? Well, that didn’t last long.

Throughout my growing, I lived life with the people (who are family) at this church. I let them “know” me, my past, my struggles, and yesterday, in a different way, I got to thank them, thank God, and it was all spoken through a dance.

At the First Baptist Church of Lemon Grove, I got to dance on stage with my flags for a song!!! You have no idea what that meant to me because I know I’m not describing it well here. There are just no words for this. If the tears running down my cheeks could talk, they’d explain it a lot better than me.

My only thoughts while dancing were of God, what He’s done, how He’s transformed me…I didn’t even see who I used to be. I just danced inside His heart in front of a group of people who have touched my life so deeply. As a good friend of mine would say…it was EPIC, AND the best part is SOMEONE RECORDED IT, so in time, you’ll all be able to see what I’m trying to explain.

And that’s another thing: it’s not bad for me to want people to record me worshiping with flags!! It a good thing…a God thing, so they’ll be more recordings coming, especially when I can afford a stand for my phone.

Anyway, I’m going to stop writing now, turn off the computer, the phone, open my bible and cry in God’s lap.

Even if I don’t know you, I love you because Jesus loved me so much He died on the cross for me. How could I not love you!