the funny part isn’t
how fast I shut down
but for how long
I guess it’s really not that funny
the funny part isn’t
how fast I shut down
but for how long
I guess it’s really not that funny
some people
need breath to laugh
but I
need laughter
to breathe
throughout living
so many things change
time
moments
love
moods
seasons
and amidst the change
there’s growth
and amidst the growth
there’s pain
and amidst the pain
there’re tears
and amidst the tears
you may find a friend
but even friends
change with time
those close by
seem far away
those far away
seem close by
some acquaintances
become friends
some friends
become acquaintances
and through it all
I often find myself
alone
in church
aa
relationships
yes people are there
and some become friends
but as I walk to each path
I’m alone
I KNOW God is with me
but even HE said
it’s not good
for “man” to be alone
yet HE was there
so as I drive to AA
as I visit different churches
and in certain conversations
I’m alone
I get turned around but never lost
it seems heavy but always light
I get weary but grab hold
of the ONE Who never changes
and someday
I won’t be
alone
[written 10/29/16]
the road of recovery
is rest in the unknown
becoming who you are
forgetting who you were
when traveled alone
every inch
feels like a mile
but with friends
all of a sudden
you turn around
and realize you’ve walked
a marathon
[written 10/29/16]
I never realized
how important
laughter was
in my life
until I went
without it
now
I’m not sure
I can live
without it
so
I chase after it
just like I do
beauty
If you spend your whole life waiting to be included, then you may spend your whole life waiting to be included.