Month: October 2016

“Nauseated”

| Laura Lee Bonde

right now in my life
there’re a few phrases
that turn my stomach
and if chewed and swallowed
would come back up

like
‘God has a plan’
‘everything happens for a reason’
‘kids’d move out anyway’
‘just give it time’

to name a few

I refuse to believe
my whole life was planned out

drugs
alcohol
rape

some things resulted from
bad choices
which led to darkened paths
not chosen by God
but chosen by me
or others

and although I’ve been
forgiven
there still remains a trail
of broken families
broken dreams
broken ness

maybe mending
takes a lifetime
maybe dreams
are meant forgotten

I made the mistake of
fantasizing reality
which led to a
rude awakening
but at least I’m awake
and at least
I’m still trying

“Reading Railroad”

| Laura Lee Bonde

recently
a friend looked
in my past
and noticed something
different

a past
in the light
is something one can
learn from or be
warned by

what causes
change
to be effective
what moves darkness
out of light

in a moment
a word
everything can shift
but nothing’ll be
as it was

“Backstage”

| Laura Lee Bonde

[written 10/17/16]

there aren’t many people
who’d beat their spouse
in front of company

there aren’t many bullies
who’d pick on kids
in front of teachers

there aren’t many parents
who’d toss their kids
in public

yet so many times
people trust
a smile
an attitude
a picture

when behind the scenes
behind closed doors
people are worn
to nothingness

and yet they
smile
and act
and pose
to mask the pain

let’s wake up
to those around us

instead of guessing
what’s behind the curtain
get to know the cast
and be part of their solution

Cold Front

| Laura Lee Bonde

Lately, I’ve experienced a lot of change, but the other night, someone else did, and it wasn’t good.

Since Scott’s picked us up from San Diego and brought us to Texas, there’s been barely any laughter, mainly because he’s been a totally different person than the man I married (and not in a good way). The oppression was intense, but I, finally, made it through it with the help of God, my AA friends, and laughter. Continue reading →

Polished to Shine

| Laura Lee Bonde

[written 10/14/16]

Recently, I was accused of holding Carolyn and Nathan here against their will. Of course, that’s not true, but instead of wasting my time explaining myself to the few who’ve interfered with my life, I’m going to tell you what’s going on with Carolyn, so you can see for yourself how she’s shined. Continue reading →

“Lead and Follow”

| Laura Lee Bonde

[written 10/14/16]

sometimes
there’s music in my head
I sing with
sometimes
there’s music in my heart
I dance with
sometimes
there’s music in my soul
I sleep with

there’re no limits to what you can do
only limits to what you “think” you can do

“Coconut Water”

| Laura Lee Bonde

[written 10/14/16]

stranded
on an island
in your mind

no one
around you
no one
to care
no one
to rescue you
no one
to rescue

have you been there?
did you know how to
swim?

that’s when you learn
the trees can talk
the birds can sing
and the waves can carry on
the conversation

if you look closely
you’ll see God everywhere!