When I talk to myself, I call myself “Laura Lee.”
all one
“Drowning”
I’m in this place
with no windows
tears filling the room
like rain
having friends
yet no one to talk to
having vision
yet not all the rent
how could I ask anyone
to understand
when I myself
don’t understand
every tear
leading to a thought
every thought
leading to a tear
feeling like a failure
again
feeling unattractive
again
feeling
again
without
a friend
to listen
finding myself
alone
with the only One
Who cares
the only One
Who listens
the only One
Who never judges
another day
where hiding seems to be
the only option
Off the Roller Coaster…FINALLY
Okay, remember the other night, I was at Carolyn’s band performance? Well, that evening, I found myself totally content on where I was and haven’t differed since.
While I was watching Carolyn, I realized how nothing was distracting me; there was nothing in the way of me seeing her, watching her, taking every movement in, and then it dawned on me what a priceless gift it was to be a single mom. Continue reading
Underground
For the last few days, I’ve been on a solitude retreat, and it was amazing! Since I’ve been going on these alone, I don’t feel like I “meet God” there; it’s more like I “take Him” with me, so the past few days have been more like a weekend getaway with my Husband. Continue reading
Bye for Now
I’m going on a retreat tomorrow but am going to start withdrawing now, so I won’t be writing for a few days.
Let me tell you about my retreat. I’m so excited!!
I’m going to a retreat center on Palomar Mountain. Normally, people go there in groups of hundreds. I like to go alone.
In the past, I’ve gone to another center, but this will be my first time at this one. Because I’m a leader, I get the “pastor’s special,”…all meals included. I won’t be taking anything electronic with me. My car’s been acting up, so I’ll take my phone, but hopefully, I won’t turn it on.
I’m excited: me, God, bibles, paper, pens, thoughts, imagination, conversation…
all alone…
all one with God.
Question
Do all writers spend a lot of time alone?
“Time to Sit”
I never want to miss what’s important
never want to be too busy
to sit at the feet of Jesus
the One Who Continue reading
“Hidden Reflection”
I love learning from God
but at the same time
feel I don’t know what I’m doing
I never learned how to blog
Discernment of Doors
I have often prayed, “God, only open the doors you have for me and close everything else,” but for some reason, I have walked through countless doors that weren’t meant for me to walk through, and I’m not sure how that happened. Well, actually, I “know”…just some things aren’t MEANT for Facebook, but if you ask me, I’ll tell you.
Some of you may know that I almost married a man who hated my laughter, thought I was a bad mother, and didn’t like my kids, and that’s only PART of the list of things that were “wrong” with me, yet I said ‘yes’ to almost spending the rest of my life with him. Continue reading
Worship Flags and Infinity Scarfs 