Freedom of Twelve

As most of you know, Nathan turned twelve on Friday. In celebrating his birth, I celebrated a personal freedom that I had never experienced before. Let me explain.

When I was twelve, something happened that changed the course of my life forever: I had sex. Emotionally, I wasn’t ready. Physically, I wasn’t ready. Spiritually, I wasn’t ready, but it happened, and that experience took me on a journey of confusion, and every so often, I’ve been reminded of it.

Every time one of the kids turned twelve, I would ride an emotional roller-coaster on the inside. They were so young, so innocent. I would look at them and picture myself at that age and wonder why, how…and my heart would travel back in time and ache, but this time, I wondered if it would be different because I’ve experienced a lot of growth, lived through a lot of truth, and have been becoming love. Would it be different? The only way to find out was to let the day come and see, and what I saw was beautiful.

Friday came…happy birthday to Nathan…breakfast…work…dinner…FREEDOM! I never once thought about the past, only celebrated the present. So, how did I gain this freedom…from Truth.

Many times, I’ve heard the part of the Scripture that says, “…the truth shall make you free,” but there’s more to that. The truth had been around me, in sermons, in the bible, but in this area of my life, I hadn’t been “free.” The first part of that Scripture is very important (and I’m going to capitalize it for emphasis): “And you shall KNOW the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” It’s KNOWing the truth that makes you free.

Because of the teaching I’ve gone through for the past nine months or so, I KNOW the truth. So much in my life has changed: the way I love is different; the way I pray is different; the way I worship is different. I could go on and on. If you are “trapped” in a certain area of your life, find the Truth, learn it, KNOW it, live it, and experience the FREEDOM that Jesus died for. There is so much life to be lived, so much love to become, and so much freedom to walk in. I’ve been called to be “me,” and today, that’s a very good thing.

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