Yesterday, I finally connected with Lee, and we had such a good visit together.
First off, if you’re wondering why I haven’t seen him in awhile, there are a couple reasons, but neither one of them really matters (but I’ll tell you anyway). Before I begin, I’ll bring new readers up to speed. Continue reading
Lately, I’ve heard a lot of negative things about relationships, to the point where I’m not sure I ever WANT one, but then I stopped myself from agreeing with everything I’ve heard.
Not all relationships HAVE to be bad. I totally don’t believe that.
If you take two people who are totally free and they fall in love, I believe the good times will definitely outweigh any bad, IF there are any bad at all.
From what I’ve seen, many relationships struggle because the people themselves struggle.
I mean, really, if being in a relationship ensures I’ll go through constant gloom and doom…no, thank you. I’m fine being in perfect relationship with God, walking with Him in the cool of the day twenty-four/seven. If a man wants to join in on this perfect relationship, it better be because He’s walking in the same garden.
Yesterday, Carolyn had her last band competition in LA, which was too far for me to travel: I didn’t have the money or the gas, so we both knew I wouldn’t’ve been able to make it, and since we’ve been bonding a lot lately, that was hard on both of us.
She was supposed to arrive back at the school at 1:00 AM, so before I went to bed, I set my alarm, and before I did that, I sent her a text of how I loved her.
After ten, she responded with what a hard day it had been. She’d endured it with pain and tears. She was tired and couldn’t wait to be home, and in her text, she put, “Mom, you don’t even know,” so I knew there was more to her day than just pain. Continue reading
For the most part, since the beginning of the year, only a handful of women have come to JC’s Girls (and not all at one time). There’ve been many times when no one’s showed up at all, and that’s okay.
The ministry wasn’t started for a group that already existed. No, the ministry was started for women to have a place to go for prayer support and for the teaching of freedom.
Last night, I didn’t expect anyone to show up but wanted to be there in case anyone did, and wouldn’t you know it…someone showed up. Continue reading
Okay, so, the world of publishing…it’s pretty big, and in reading/watching/etc., I learned that having your poem published in a journal or magazine is a good first step (and an easy one), so I’ve submitted one of my poems to a Christian magazine to see how it goes; although, it doesn’t really “need” to be Christian, but that’s what I stumbled upon.
To be totally honest, it’s difficult for me to concentrate on publishing when rent is looming. My focus tends to be on what I “should” be doing to make money now.
Ugh, at times, I don’t like being honest, but I can’t help it.
I love God, trust God, know God…it’s marketing that I don’t know or don’t have the patience for.
Anyway, a worship flag would be a GREAT Christmas gift. [hint, hint] 😉
So many wonderful things happened on my retreat, but many of them are for me and God to know and for you to never find out, but some of them will be shared (as time goes on), and one in particular came to mind tonight.
On my retreat, I met a young pastor, and at one point, I was telling him about when all I had to make for dinner was beans and rice and how Nathan reacted, and, ultimately, how I reacted. Do you remember? Continue reading
The other day, I was coming from Santee and knew the freeways were jammed, so I decided to take the streets, and, in doing so, passed by some memory lanes.
You know, some people suggest to never visit your past, but I tell you what: I’ve found victory in it.
As I was going down a road in El Cajon, I drove by a storage place. My friend and her boyfriend used to live in one of the spaces. I remembered it well: it’s where we used drugs, bought drugs, etc. That was back in my dancing days.
This is where people may say, “That’s not you. You’re a new creation. Don’t even mention it!” I disagree. Continue reading
Have you ever been attacked by words? If you’re alive, your answer’s probably yes.
Before my retreat, I was attacked harshly by two different people, both “Christians”…both “speaking their truth in love,” but this isn’t a post about bashing them. It’s about continuing to move forward in spite of them.
If you’re new or old to my blog, you’ve probably noticed how I love God and how I live through His Heart. In doing so, I’ve realized all the dreams I have and how they’ll become reality in due time. One of these dreams is to write about whatever God puts on my heart and/or mind, and that’s what I’m currently doing, but it’s more than that. Continue reading
If you asked me, I’d say we had a lot of fun on Halloween, and when I say “we,” I mean me, Carolyn, Nathan, and then some.
The kids keep wanting “game nights,” so I keep creating time to have them, so on Friday, a few of Carolyn’s friends came over to hang out, and a couple of them ended up staying all weekend. Continue reading
Worship Flags and Infinity Scarfs 