“HEADS or Tails”

having one mind
the mind of Christ
mysteries revealed
never hidden

knowing Him
to such a degree
of living WITH Him
eternally

never wanting
never needing
darkness
to survive

having been
on the other side
I can tell you
Light prevails

no more waking
unknowing
no more passing out
to sleep

no more selling
what was His
no more lying
to get it right

flip the coin
until it lands on Him
and choose to live
on the other side

 

Dinner’s Done

In the beginning of my recovery through AA, I’d felt I’d finally made it “home.” Everyone accepted me, loved me, remembered my name. It was so good. I loved going to meetings and acted a certain way there, which the kids rarely saw at home.

I remember times when the kids would say, “You need a meeting,” and I’d usually leave to go to one. By the time I came back, I was in a good mood, ready to be a mom. That lasted for years, until I really surrendered to God. Continue reading

My Best Day

Throughout my years of recovery (from alcohol and from hell), I’ve remembered many things, some of them good and some of them not so good. When it comes to memories of my dad, there aren’t very many.

In the past, most memories I’ve had of him were attached with pain, but through learning how to reject the pain, I now only have memories, and most of them that I remember bring a smile to my face, like the one I had this morning. Continue reading