control inside the house
independence
the lock on the door
hiding from the wind
keeping everything out
even Him Continue reading
JC’s Girls
For the One-on-One
For the most part, since the beginning of the year, only a handful of women have come to JC’s Girls (and not all at one time). There’ve been many times when no one’s showed up at all, and that’s okay.
The ministry wasn’t started for a group that already existed. No, the ministry was started for women to have a place to go for prayer support and for the teaching of freedom.
Last night, I didn’t expect anyone to show up but wanted to be there in case anyone did, and wouldn’t you know it…someone showed up. Continue reading
Season’s Greetings
As I sit here with God, I began to write about something “I” wanted to write about (knowing that God wanted me to write about something totally different). I managed to get a title out and one sentence. It was so forced. I KNEW God wanted me to reveal my heart, but I didn’t want to listen. Needless to say, after that ONE sentence, I realized I wasn’t going to get anywhere, so I deleted it and am now writing about what God told me to. Continue reading
Corking a Geyser
Last night, I almost believed the enemy and had planned never to write again. Why I even entertained him disturbs me, but I did and even set my alarm, so it’d be too late for me to write this morning. My plan failed because God woke me up an hour before my alarm and told me to write, so here I am. Continue reading
Porn in the Way
Very rarely do I write without knowing how to begin, but this morning, that’s what I’m going through…with tears in my eyes. In my time with God, He spoke to me about the hearts of men. How precious those hearts are!
In JC’s Girls, which is a ministry that reaches out to women in the adult entertainment industry, some of our largest donations have come from men, and the ones I’ve received eye-to-eye, I’ve seen a veil of guilt and shame over their eyes, which has tugged on my heart. Continue reading
A Place to Hide
Earlier this week, something was said to me that wasn’t true, yet it made me cry. I spent time in my bedroom (away from the kids) and cried on my pillow: ready to give up dancing, ready to stay home, ready to be hidden. All of those feelings rose up in the tears, but since I knew they were all lies, I got over it and moved on…so I thought. Continue reading
Social Media Confidence
As I’m quiet with God about what to write about, He mentions this, and I begin to cry. Great! I have a feeling I’m about to be more real than I’d like, but when God says, “Write,” I write, so here we go.
Social Media: when you have your own business, online networking is a must. When I follow God’s voice, I often think piece-of-cake, until I’m involved in it, and it gets rough, and I’m finding that social media marketing has a darker side than I thought.
At times, I wish there wasn’t a “like” button or a “follow” button Continue reading
“Real Love”
Lights, cameras, cell phones held high
men walking in a trance
hoping to capture what they think is love
only to leave empty
Love of this world
disguised as lust
driven by greed
a counterfeit beauty
And then they see Light Continue reading
JC’s Girls at the Rock
I lead a ministry at the Rock Church in San Diego called “JC’s Girls,” and we go to strip clubs and porn conventions and love on the ladies, and beyond that, we live our lives through God’s heart. Every day…reaching out.
What Our Ministry is About
As a leader, I’ve been loved, supported, prayed for, judged, talked about, challenged…there’s probably more, but thank God…I only care what He thinks, so I’m going to pour out my heart for a moment.
